++itchy=gatal..so scratch me++yichee

Try

2010-11-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

After so long, I have come back to this place. A place where all sadness will continue to roam. I woke up to ask myself this morning, what do I want with my life? This is such a simple question yet I have no answer to it. Of course I don't like to waste my time but what can I do when I don't even know how to start with.

Failure is part and parcel of life. When ever it comes to relationship stuff, I tend to fail badly. I begin to question myself, am I the one who is at fault? I heard from the song the one who cares most usually won't get the answer out of it. Why is it that when I am ready to give it will always be a failure ending. One day maybe I will give up everything even my own hope in myself. Just hope that all my positive thoughts will stay as long as possible.

" If I walk would you run, if i stop YOU come..
If I say you are the one, would YOU believe me? "

It is not easy to love like this..

Before the sun meets the horizon

2010-05-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

All these while, I have been catching up with family and friends that I haven't seen in quite a while. The feeling catching up is great and knowing that some are not really doing to well actually affects me because I would wonder what can I do to make their life better. I would look in silence and feel really bad inside for not taking out more time for them. But I did what I can, I have my limit too. But nevertheless, lets change for the better.

To an old friend of mine, I know that I would be leaving for a while and I told you to take great care. But I meant it when I said it and that would let my mind set in peace. Whether is it a mistake, that would not matter anymore. I believe what matter to us is we live our life without forgetting the presence of each other on this island. One day we might meet again and lets sit down in a cafe near a corner and talk about our life again. Promise me you will work hard and live well.. :)

Singing has been with me for a while, and I ask myself, why do I sing? Why do you sing ? I decided that my reason is simple. I want to sing for a very last time before I go in and I would sing with every bit that I have.

Preparation for graduation is almost done but army stuff is still undone. Damn man~ Hmm okie gotta do it soon soon SOON. Whoo, gotta change bed sheet.. Take Care Everyone :)

YiChee™

To my younger brother.

2010-04-12T13:21:00.001+08:00

This entry will be solely to my younger brother.

Yi Sheng,

I understand at times we can't bear to give in to each other and we often like to bicker. Since young we always love to fight and quarrel over tiny mini stuffs but who can be like us? After each quarrel we still can sit down watch TV, eat together, play games and watch youtube video together. But one thing that will never change is we love our pride, don't we? But as your big brother, I learn to give in and apologize. I am glad to see you change for the better but your bad temper really agitates me at times. That explains why I spoke to you that saturday morning. I might sound a bit harsh about your scholarship and stuff but if I don't say would understand the importance of it? or even realise it is too late? You are clever and smart, we all know that. So why do you want to waste your chances when you can make use of the benefits that you can enjoy? Our family is not that well off to being with and you know that mom is also having a hard time supporting us. So brother, come to think of it, can we make mom's burden lighter?

You might think that I am trying to ignite a fight again but think again brother. Don't we share the same goal somehow? it is in which to make our mother feel more happy and more fortunate to have us as her son, right ? So why are we keeping silent like this? Are we enemies ? I already said sorry seems to be the hardest word to say and I have said it to you. So isn't it time that you should have said something or at least greet me when you see me ? I have said my piece. Whether will you read this post, I shall let fate decides. But if you really do, just want to let you know if anything happens in your life, I will be behind there to help you. I promise.

YiChee™

Adaptation & Changes in life

2010-04-12T10:00:00.000+08:00

Today while I was editing in my suite, I overheard one of the colleague is going off. I actually respect and look up to him as my role model. During my internship days, without him around things would have been hetic for me. I tried to ask him the reasons for leaving the company and he answer me this way.

Ask myself ...

(1) Do you need this job ?

(2) Can you get another job ?

(3) Are you happy with this job ?

Basically, he told me that he answered these three question and then he derived from a answer. This is certainly a changing point in his life and I am sure that he knows what he is doing. There is this saying, the start of this departure is to get ready for the next meet up. But on the editing work wise, it feels that I am alone and it seems that I can't adapt to that feeling. Last time in school got mates to see and help but now is all about being independent now.

I guess my next stage of life would be Army life. Some said it to be good. But the thing that I look forward to is having them transform my "World United" stomach into 8 pack dark chocolate. Heh. Okie maybe it is just my fat dream. Okie. It seems like the clock struck 6 and I already hear the sound of basketball hauling me ! Hehe, feels like today gonna have a few hard knock rebounds and body contacts.

Alrighty people, please stay cool and healthy as we all know about the weather recently and exercise more !

okie Ciaos.

YiChee™

Decisions are often made, whether is it big or small ones. I learnt that decisions that are made at the very moment are mostly right, because we won't want to choose something wrong and ruin ourselves, right ?

Recently, I think I need to further push myself from not spending too much. I really need to save up, SAVE UP ! Heh, a lot of dreams to be fulfilled in my life. Some might sound impossible. But as long as I am alive one day here, I will try to make my dream come true.

Me.

2010-04-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

It is my third day at work. But to be honest, it felt different this time. I felt that I was having a more bigger responsibility. One of my mentor in this company has left and I am sitting on his seat and it felt really different. And he left behind his IPOD classic behind and I got it from him. He fulfil my dream of getting a IPOD. I am grateful to him. But I just hope that my two month here will make my learn more. Throwing myself out into the industry, I had a lot of worries and uncertainties that is going through my mind. But I am a person who thinks a lot, besides if you don't make your first move and start doing who knows what will happen ?

With no doubt I can say I love singing a lot. Whenever I have the chance to listen to songs that I like, I will pay extra attention to it, hoping one day I will have the chance to perform to my friends and family. And I am glad inside because each time I know that I improve, I will push myself to the next stage but I also didn't want to overdo it as well. No matter what it is, I know I won't give up so easily on where my passion burns on as well.

Acting. I didn't realise I would have such interest for acting as well. But it was fun acting in my own final project. After seeing the outcome, I feel that I had no regrets or maybe I just regrets that the time was to do this project wasn't long enough.

Hmm, one thing to mention but not to hurt anyone. I don't like when people mention about my grey hair. I know I have to live with it and I somehow don't have a choice at all. I tried to change whatever that I think could lead to my grey hairs. One thing that calms me down a bit is ,yes it does help afterall. I mean I may sound vain here but think of it this way if someone keep reminding you of your imperfection when you know clearly better than anyone. Arh fuck it lah. Sorry if i offended anyone but I just need a place to throw it out.

Alright, enough whining. I am going home now ! :D Bye peeps !

YiChee™

心。结

2010-03-30T01:05:00.000+08:00

我今天将用华语来述说我的一些内心的感受和想法。

也许有很多人会觉得我会想地很多但是不想的话问题就会自然而然的解决？

久了想太多这个毛病就变成了我的坏习惯。这导致我把很多事情都看不开也放不下。

或许我觉得这会让我觉得比较好因为我是一个很有责任的人。

常常我会觉得成绩不是一切，但我也是人，难免也回觉得失望。

辛苦到这样，为的是什麼？也不过是想在最后打出一章漂亮的成绩单，让父母和自己有个交代。

不过往往这世界是不公平的，老师往往也会有自己欣赏的一些学生。

我时不时也会被”爱“这个字耍的不知所错。不是来一个时间不对就是年纪太小。我不知道我该做什麼了。

也许我要面对的还有很多，如果你能知道，我想对你说 “不是你不好，可能是你年纪太小，或者是我还不够好。

我累了。不想再多说。有时后说了也等于白说。

YiChee™

Free Time. Empty Space. Zone Out.

2010-03-18T04:21:00.000+08:00

I think for these 3 years, my sleeping clock has been screwed badly. I need to get it right. Hmm, at this time where people are sleeping I am blogging. Ohh, Chalet Chalet Chalet, next week need to go chalet ! Whooo! Regarded as the unofficial officially graduation night for FSV. Now how does that sound? hehehe.. The idea of food is making me really hungry ! Hehe, Okie *(PEH YI CHEE STAY CALM)

Next post I will be uploading the photos for 茶叶蛋. I re-edited myself and touched up on it. Hmm, I just got a random feeling. Do a project solely on AE..I will take it as a challenge to myself. lol.

It is a feeling that I felt recently. Mixed feeling actually. Haha, I don't even know if I should be laughing but yeah. Hmm, I need more time to this. Damn. At the same time I feel lost too. Damn man. This phase suck.

Alright, gotta try the second attempt to sleep.

YiChee™

The end welcomes the new beginning

2010-03-10T18:58:00.001+08:00

Is it coming all to an end ? All of a sudden, my pace of life has been slow down and it felt weird. I guess I should use this time to slowly get my body back to normal state. hmm, maybe first step for me is to sleep at normal time, 11.30pm. I believe I can starting from today. Next phase of my life would be army days. I would say that I am not looking forward to it but then I somehow have to get this over and done with. Ehh~ (=.=) I need to get a job soon. I wanna get my IPOD touch. Hmm, being dreaming about it since last year. But then, it just seems so hard to get there. Debts here and there and also, I will be grateful if people will learn to be appreciative of kind actions. Yeah here is a picture of it, hmm I think the 32 GB one sounds worth it ! hehe *(You can engrave what you want, and FREE shipping !)

To fullfil this dream, I had to work. And I recently found myself a job. But still I need to go through a second interview. Hee, Good Luck to me yo !

Okie, this song I found it very nice. I want to delicate this song to my Masscom friends, FSV friends,Sun Leopard Ah bangs and my Brothers of FSV. Erm, this song is by Alicia Keys - "If I ain't got you" .

"If I didn't have you guys for these three years, it will be nothing at all."

Lyrics: Augello-Cook, Alicia

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live just for the power, yeah

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things

defines what is within

And I've been there before and that life's a bore

So full of the superficial

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want Diamond ring

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you baby

Some people search for a fountain

That promises forever young

Some people need three dozens roses

And thats the only way you prove to love him

Hand me the world one a silver platter

And what good would it be?

With no one to share

with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want Diamond ring

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you you you you

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want Diamond ring

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby

Said nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing

If I ain't got you with me baby

Alright, This friday will be the screening of "CHA YE DAN" and other AFP 2 projects ! Looking forward to it !

For now, take care peeps ! Weather has been a bitch but then we have to stay strong. :D

YiChee™

" No one is responsible for your own health, accept yourself..."

GG. SCREWED.

2010-01-27T00:24:00.001+08:00

I thought I could have finished it but I can't. I was hoping for even a glimpse of hope to postpone my presentation.

Worried thoughts invaded me while I was in the bus and a sudden fast break just shook all the thoughts out of me. I was in shocked and I know that I was 3 stops away from NP.

It was a close shave that I could postpone my presentation if not I would have died badly. Sometime it is all about having more understanding between each person. Thats all and we can have more peace and harmony among us. Agree?

I am pretty tired in class now and my head could drop any moments. Not mentioning that I have a shoot later. How am I going to survive? lol? And thesis essay? There are more to say and I don't want to know. FML . Alright.

Lastly I was annoyed by a selfish classmate. What a way to treat her own classmates. She should deserve what she should.

Hmm, maybe I should go back to lesson. Oh shit. It just ended.

YiChee™

Reflection and refraction?

2010-01-26T12:52:00.001+08:00

Life has been busy and it seems like I forgot when is when. How does it feels to you when a Saturday feels like a Sunday? When someone ask you, eh what day is it today arh? And you are stunt so long that you cannot answer that simple question. Lols. Maybe I am exaggerating it. But that how I feel as I type. I feel that I had grown up more and I learnt a lot towards the all the events that I had participated.

1. it is more about learning to be listeners first before we become problem solver.

2. When you commit a mistake, don't tell a lie. Because then you need to tell endless lies to cover up for what you started.

3. It is more about giving others a chance to be prove what he or she can do rather than just pushing them around just because he is weak in certain areas.

4. Don't make any assumption base on what you FIRST see, it might be deceiving.

5. We rush for time but we do it correctly. Just remind don't shout. Human needs respect too.

6. Don't wait for people to ask you what to do, we should KNOW how to take initiative and offer people our help.

7. Don't push the blame to others and make it seems like it is their fault. Because try putting yourself in their shoes.

8. Always consult when you are unsure, don't take it alone and mess up situation

9. If you are there to help, be sure to lend a hand but not a mouth. We can give suggestion but not give command unless needed.

10. Always be mindful of what is happening and be responsible for what you are doing.

"The name of a role is just a status, what lies within the person is the capability to prove what he or she can..."

I will leave it just for now as it is. Busy life and but I will still want meet you like how fate was kind to let us meet again and again. Just want say take care.

YiChee™

Anger within me

2009-12-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

All these disputes, I dislike them. So much for that some are just unavoidable. Why can't we be more patient with one another and things will get it done sooner than expected? Must we really do things that way? Why are some people so impatient with others? If I want to be this way I could though but just that it will not turn out a happy ending. The question is do we really have to do things in a nasty way? I am sick and tired of all these shit.

YiChee™

Checkpoint 1

2009-12-09T20:00:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye, half the semester is already gone. Time flies as we get higher up.

There is a lot of stuffs to talk about but not much time to be spend here. Life is sad here.

Dream girl got away. My eyes are failing on me. Feeling lousy all inside. What else can be worse? Just carry on with my life man. Sometime in life, things just don't go as you plan

and how long did i take to accept that fact?

Overall I think that from my Advanced Film Production 1, it was a fruitful one.

I just prayed that for the second project it will be a smooth one for everyone :)

Schools has been so busying I could not have time for myself. I said to myself that I feel bad. I know I promised you to meet up with you but i really couldn't. One problem after another, but still my only wish now is to just meet up with you and have a simple meal.

As for my B clan, I really missed each and everyone of them. It has been weeks since I see them. But i didnt say much either. It is because after so long I feel the gap in between. I just hope that I could go back in time to just enjoy the happy moments once more. I said this is because, people do change and I feel that my friend should think clearly about his future and how he got in to poly. Not alot of people got the chance to get in to polytechnic and I think that he should cherish on what he got.

Lastly, Lady S, I wish you all the best and I believe that you made the right choice and I won't even question you. For all the song that I sang, it was for you. Just solely for you if you didn't notice. Maybe I was too shy to speak up maybe i was too dumb, but it is all to late for all these now. No matter what, just be happy with who you are with and that should be able to let me know that you are safe and sound.

Alright, I am worried for my eyes now. Both are infected. Who can understand the fear in me? Sigh, i shall go rest now.

YiChee™

Helpless

2009-10-19T01:15:00.002+08:00

My brother came up with a brilliant idea of having a tatoo. Great, now how am I going to reply him. Firstly he still have 2 years in secondary and he told me that he is gonna paste a plaster

over his hand to bluff his teacher for that period. Secondly, he knows that it is against the rules why does he still want to cross over the line and push himself in a dangerous position? Thirdly, once the ink is dry it will become part of him. Have he ever thought about the consequences of having it? In terms of socially and stuff. Lastly I really want to ask him, did he ever spare a thought about Mom. Does he ever learn? Haven't we gave him enough freedom? Does he ever feel contended about his life? Just what else can i do for him?

Moving on...Lady S has someone I trust to watch over her. I am truly bless about it. Though I think she might not even notice my presence. But when school starts, I hope that she remembers me..A person who is willing to share her joy and sadness with her when ever she feels lonely. Yah man..What else more can is say..

Alright tmr will be the opening of sch. So i shall rest early. Mind and Body are equally tired.

YiChee™

For a change

2009-10-16T03:19:00.006+08:00

I changed a new blogskin. I hope that it helps to brightens up my mood too :)

Hmm, i guess I need some rest now. Tomorrow will be a busy day ! :D

YiChee™

Down

2009-10-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

Today is 14 of Oct 2009. My mood is not getting any better. One matter after another. I began to question myself, am i a good brother? Am i fit to his brother? Since young, i know that i did not treat my younger brother good enough. Maybe i was young, I did not know the importance of family relationships. But i did try my best to give what i can to my younger brother as we grow older. Once again, my heart is having that torturous feeling. It is really unbearable.

when i know he is going back to what he used to be. I am feeling all worried. Just what can i do to help him? I am helpless. It is like i am crying from inside when he just can't hear it, just shouting out to him, 'please don't turn back, I will be here..' I just keep praying for him, hope that he will know that there is still people caring for him.

As for her, I shall name her as Lady S.

For all the words that i want to tell her, for the songs that i want to sing to her.

I am not sure when is the right time. Or maybe it is not gonna happen at all.

This feeling suck as usual too. Just what else can i do for you..

YiChee™

19th Birthday

2009-09-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

Chapter : 21 Of September

Hellos everyone :D How have you guys been doing? Well, i guess it has been great for you guys because we are in the midst of the holiday. Hah! I guess for people like me i should sleep more because we are always lack of sleep.

Alright, so 21 of september is my birthday. I went out with my B Clan's brothers and eat. Well, sometime i don't ask much but everyone got thoughts can liao :D I appreciate alot of what you guys did but if i look kinda of tired or gloom, ehh..I also dun know why actually. But deep inside i appreciate each and everyone of your time and efforts.

So once again, let me wish myself a Happy 19 Birthday YiChee~ And my three wishes are...haha alright made :D and cannot say. Secret~ Haha, alright lah, I should try to rest early tonight :D Hehe.

Gd Night Everyone :D

™YiChee ™

Days when shit hit right in my face

2009-09-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

Mood: Feeling Down

Today is Wednesday, 2 of September 2009. The first thing I went out was to realise that i didn't get my concession for bus. Second thing, i went to BBDC for BTT. I went in the exam hall with high hopes but then i came out of the hall with disappointment written all over my face. Deep inside i told myself that never mind, shall try again. So i went to queue up and top-up the value in my account to re-book the date. Hah, so when i am going to use my NETS card, all the machines over there didn't really like my card. So i have the idea of my NETS card is spoilt for no reason. Yah Yah Blah Blah.. So i borrow my friends card to top-up and then book for the next coming test. Next destination is OCBC Bank. The time was 4.32pm when i reach OCBC bank. The security was at that door and he flip the "closed" sign over. I was feeling screwed up all inside already. lol. But thinking back, I didn't really know the reason why my card couldn't be accepted so I went to withdraw money. To my surprise, it actually work. At that point of time, my mood was drastic already. Then I was on my way to Orchard for dinner already. But the actual venue was at Marine Square lvl 2, Breeks. Hmm, so i was walking in Wisma Atrium. But something shocking just happen right in front of my eyes. My heart sank right at the moment when i saw her. After all, all I can blame is myself.

On a lighter note, today catching up with classmates was really great. We had great fun and talk about all stuffs. Oh yah, the food was great too. Haha. Keenan shared his vision with me and he inspired me. I feel that with this new wave that we are talking about will succeed if we work hard enough. But for now, we need to pen down all the concepts and ideas first. After all those good food it is time when we shake some fats off. haha. In other words, will be gyming tmr. Alright, shall stop here and go do my stuffs. Take care everyone :D

YiChee™

Yeah Yeah ~

2009-08-16T23:16:00.001+08:00

Hi to all peeps ! :D How's life going for you?
Haha, finally attachment has ended and strange things is I feel weird because all of a sudden
I do not need to wake up early, I no need to stress about what to do everyday and I need not write
any reports anymore. But I just want to specially mention that how difficult is it to find a good working
environment and colleagues. I can say it firmly, I did. I can say my days in Moving Bits has been great although
shit happens occasionally. Haha, but we learn from mistakes, right? Yup ! I will go there after my army.
I just need a break now. Also, want to specially thanks a producer over there, he gave me alot chances and showed
the way, just like to say, " Thank You ! Jude ! You rock as a bro :D "

So after work and reports, I decided to lend a helping hands to my classmates. Studio shoots are so fun lah. It reminds me of the times when I am in year 2. Hmm, hanging out wit classmates or juniors are the best time to chill and unwind yourself. :D Sure we did have a good laugh after the studio shoot ! Tomorrow i am going to help my classmates to edit his
Studio shoot. I can understand that he is under alot of stress also, so i am just doing what i can for everyone.

Yesterday was my first time clubbing. Hmm, just to say the atmosphere there were great but when we are having fun please show respect to girls over there also. I said this because I saw some weird uncle touching some young girls.
Yah, But but the fun part is my friend and I dance form 12 to 3. Thats when let go of ourselves totally. haha~
" Dance to the beat yo! You spin my head right round, right round~" haha that song is stuck in my head. :D

So take care peeps Rest early and drink lots of water. :D x 100

Updates~

2009-07-04T23:42:00.004+08:00

Chap : The End? Or maybe not?

Hi peeps, today is a Saturday so how did you spend it? Hmm, weekends are really short if you don't plan it well it will slip away so fast that you will complain. Hah, I finally put them into words though it is in my head a long time.

My life in Moving Bits is on a calm phase. Not really busy for now but yah.. I heard that projects are coming in my way so I have to enjoy as much as I can first. Hmm, though i don't really know how to pamper myself but when i have good food i wlll be happy. Haha, that is why i have a fat body i guess. Oh well, it is not a crime to be fat but we cannot afford to be lazy. Oh yah, back to work topic, lol hmm, this friday was so funny, i actually mix up the report deadline. I scared myself for nothing. Piang eh~ haha..But still it is done anyway now. Now i need not think about it now, (^_^)

Arh, this is the month where lots of thing happen last year. It is true, after all these, what is left are memories that will accompany us. haha sound like old hag~lol nvm lah end with a song..Oh yah before i forget..

ANG SHI KANG!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAN! lol ~ (^_^) v
"Sing with our hearts, anywhere can be a stage, anyone can be our audience."

YiChee

Lazniess

2009-06-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

Chpt: Laziness

Hmm, i don't know why recently really like to sleep alot. It makes me wonder have i become more lazy?
Saturday has been great. I went out with B'Clan bros to Unity Secondary funfair. The atmosphere there was
really good accept for the hot weather that bothers everyone i guess. Yeah, I saw a teacher sang 1 of my favorite
song, 世界唯一的你. It was nice definitely, it also sparks the urge in me to go up. LOL i think i think too much, haha,
I am not even related to them. Then we went to Yee Tee Shopping Centre. I didn't know that there is one. haha.
After that we parted our ways and i went to Lot one since i don't feel like going home. We had fun and played around.
Really enjoy time with my B'clan bros. Hah, Later my duet partner came over to my house and we watch dragon balls.
Lols, it is our child hood cartoon lah, then for some reason it stopped playing already. Then we play guitars and sang for a while. Hah, it is really nice when you inspire the people around you about what you love doing. One of my B'clan bro was asking me stuffs about singing. Though i don't know much, but I don't mind telling him what i know. Thats what i mean when i say "Inspire and Influence." haha

Sunday morning, i got up with and decided to practise for the whole morning. I think i found a higher range for my
vocal. Though it may or may not succeed at times, but practise makes perfect. I got a feeling deep in me, it is coming soon. I do not know what it is but it is coming on it way. I hope i am prepared by then. Alot thing i want to do but
I have not achieve yet. I guessi I need to sit down and plan seriously. Hah.
Also want to say to You Ming Bro, take care and all the best man :)

To one of my B Clan bros :
" It does not matter where or how you start, it matters how and where you end."

Alright, i guess thats it. haha, end with this song that I am loving it.

[Title:人质]
[Singer:张惠妹]
[Album:我要快乐]

_人质_
词:冷玩妹 coldplay sister 曲:黄韵仁

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

Change

2009-05-27T20:41:00.003+08:00

Chapter : Change

I am back for a post. I can only say i am angry and depressed at the same time. First round of
grading for IAP has been confirmed. My result is just a C+. I just merely made one mistake and
there, C+. I am not sure if it is because i am not good or I am just not being like by my supervisor.
I tried my best in everything i do. And all I get is a C+. It makes me wonder if i should be a Mr. Nice
in the office. Does it pay to be nice? I am changing my attitude in my company and thats final. No more
Mr Nice guy and i shall just be a intern. After all no matter how much i tried to be perfect, It won't matter
in her eyes either. I think favoritism is just obvious and I am just not the 100% perfect intern
that my supervisor is hoping for. Screw you..Big time man..I am going to prove it further that you are wrong.
Just you wait for that day.

†Yichee†

2009-05-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

Chapter: Sleeping inside..

Life has been fruitful these few weeks eversince I disappear from here. It makes me wonder what would life be
when there is not sadness? What is life when it is filled with happiness? I can't say that I truly understand but
life that are fill with different kind of events, memories and feelings is just wonderful. No matter is it the bad
one or good one, it is always looking back that makes me feel that life is filled with all kinds of emotions. I still
can't redeem for what i did. For all the best that i pray upon or i wish upon, i didn't know if it came true. But the
ultimate is I wish that happiness will be with by her side all along.

My dream felt so real that day. A stage of my own. I am waiting for my turn to turn that moment into mine.
I was feeling all nervous and it felt as if i was in there. No matter what it is, as long as i have a chance to be on l
will treat it as my last performance.

"I have hurt someone, it is not easy to make it up. All i can say is it is just for the best of us."

" A Stage is a Chance and it is up to us to seize that moment..."

Alrights peeps , Have a nice day :)

Chapter : Recharge

2009-03-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

Chapter: Recharge

Finally, the long break that i am looking forward to has arrived. This semester has being a great learning experience for me. It is just unlike the times when i was in Year one. I learn so much things that i did not even expect myself to know. I really appreciate the classmates and lecturers that i have as they are unique in a lot of ways. It has really been a exciting and fun semester for me although there are good and bad times. We all shall learn form mistake and grow stronger. In about two to three weeks time we will be going for attachment soon. This means i will not see my classmates for 5 months. I just want to wish everyone before they go for their respective IAP. As for those doing IBP, I already talk to them those who need my help can try to sms me, if i am able to make it i will help you guys.

Today I stay at home and chill out the whole day. It been great day so far. Tomorrow going back to school again for FMS meeting. I am going overseas camp before i go for my internship which means i need to rest now or else i don't have much time to rest. Hmm, better sleep as much as i can, lol. Yeah I forgot i still got graduation video still. shit. alright. Shall go and work on it now. Good luck everyone!

™†Yichee†™

™†Yichee†™

2009-02-26T12:25:00.001+08:00

Chapter: THE END

"If there is a start there will be an end, if there is up there will be down. This is a endless cycle.
But who can look through this cycle and understand the meaning behind it? Sometimes to start
afresh is a option for people to forget their past, some just choose to keep things in their hearts.
Some are meant to be, some are just not. I once thought i found the right person but then i realize
i was wrong. Tears shed, mood bad, life becomes blend. I was sad for a while about why all these
happen but i have no reasons to explain. I know she was sad before but not anymore. I am glad
for her that she did it. I hope she leads a happier life than before. Regrets and hatred should not
exist after a relationship. I personally think of that because it is pointless to feel that way. After all
everyone of us needs most is care and concern. To end with, i know that i have the happiest august
2008 last year with no regrets left behind."

School have been busy even though it is a holiday for me. But Yeah, gotta pack up all my emotions
and get prepared for a busier holiday. For people working in school with me, lets work hard and
strive for our future! We are going to be year threes soon so we should behave like one. Yeah gotta go
off to do some planning now. Bye Peeps ! Work Hard !

™†Yichee†™

It is coming to an end soon..or maybe not..

2009-02-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

Hi to all, I am back for a post. Being busy for a long time and i love it somehow. I know it sound abit crazy but still
i am trying not to rest too long as my attachment will be starting soon. A adequate amount of rest is of course needed.

Lets see...project that are left over now are graduation video, Drama production editing. Yeah man, this two. After this will be a short rest and self-upgrade program will starts. I really afraid for my attachment to start but I want to learn a lot from the production house. Maybe i should set my mindset properly before i go for my attachment. A few days ago, my friends ask me, if i am not a editor next time, what will i be? For a moment, i can't answer this question because i have no planning. I should thank this friend who remind me of always have a backup plan. I can't disclose her/his name because i have not gotten from her/his consent. But still i want to thank her for suddenly asking me that question. This question shall be unanswer because i really don't have a answer. But i believe one day i will find my answer. For now i am working hard for my passion and i feel happy after every project to see the work that i have never achieve before. Sometime i will ask for comments. And i strongly don't agree of my friends siding me. If it is not good enough just say so, so i will know where is the need for the room of improvement. Talking about this, i also want to thank another of my friend who help me in Y-scoop project. I thank him for his honest comment and i realise that there is alot of things i need to improve on. I also cannot diclose his name as i think he/she might not like it. But still i want to thank this friend.

Life in my family has not been really great. I am really troubled when they had a tiff. I am so tired when i am back from school and all i hear is them quralleling over unless stuffs. Then my brother almost get himself expell because he follow his friends to smoke in school. Sigh~ I mean looking at the amount of trouble he is in now, if i were him i will just go back to class rather than following his friends to go and smoke. Thank god i wrote a letter to OM and he can be back to school in no time. All i hope is peace in family, really, thats all i wish for.

I guess sometimes something are hard to get over with. But i am sure that the desicion that i made earlier is for her own benefits. i just don't want to hide the truth and make her even more hurt after that. I know it hurts but at least i tried to save the best that i can. Saying things like staying alone for 10, 20 years won't really help. All i wish for is you can find someone who really suits you. Sometime it just hurt the other party more when he sees that the girl is saying words or stuffs that are weird. I knnow it is my fault after all this but at least i tried to make things like were before.

Life is just so unpredictable and i hope everyone live to the fullest. Good night peeps.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNDT-wR17Mk

<李圣杰-----手放开>
我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门对著夜幕发呆
看著往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听著别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
认真真看情感慨
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已悄在
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔著一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个车牌写著等待
我把收音机打开听著别人的失败
哽咽的声音彷佛诉说著相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

First of all, i wish everyone a very Happy Chinese Year! It has been a long day for me and i got this feeling that i am falling sick soon. I can't really afford that because i got two important shoots to go to. Also, thank god that i cleared my IS like last week. If not i would have more stuffs to do. My flu is like running tap water and i feel very irritate. I think this is because i was affected by the dust because i did a spring cleaning with my Dad yesterday and we quarreled. I scolded him for storing all the junks into the store room and then complained that why is there so many things in the store room. Sometime really cannot stand his weird temper.

Alright, i also ask a few of my friends whether should i post my own recording onto my blogs so i can get more comments and improve myself. But i am still considering.

It is 2009 and don't feel and different. Just like 2008, i always feel tired and sleepy in class. I realise that if this becomes a habit next time when i am going for attachment i will just die. Well, maybe the only thing that i feel different is maybe my attitude towards certain matter change. I might not be as stubborn as before or not as worked up as before. I will tell myself it is pointless to feel so as long as i do my best (^_^). I haven really work out my New Year Resolution although i believe most of them did, but i am going to start with my first one. It is to learn piano. I want to put in effort to at least try to ake it happen.

I got my new perspective in relatoinship, i can only say that whatever may come i don't know but as long as i keep a positive mindset towards it i am sure it will make me feel happier for everyday. Cause i Believe

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情Ii
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

oh i believe cause i believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
oh i believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

I should rest early now. Good Night everyone =) and take great care of your health (^_^)
Chaos ~

YiChee ™

Moving!

2009-01-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

I am MOVING BLOG SOON arh ~ Shall give more updates when i am ready.

Hell And Heaven

2008-12-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hi Peeps, i am back for a post. Hehe yah man. Although i have not been blogging but alot of things happened this few weeks. Superpitch, hetic week, audio assignment one, etc...Basically, people who are in my class should know what i mean. When i feel like in 3 days i only slept for 8 hours. Doing my assignment while my headache is giving me pain.
I told meself to pull it through. After that week, i felt relieve and i believe my classmates felt the same too. Well, there is endless assignemnts when there is no exams for us. I guess that is the price that we have to pay. I felt sad for super pitch.
Not being able to really show the judges the full potential of our idea. Maybe we are too busy with assignments or maybe i don't know. I think what is important is i learn from every mistake made and pick myself up. What done is done and the grades are permanent now. I think i have to work hard to save back my grades. I can't just give up.

This week no gym no swimming no basketball. Totally nothing. I felt abit no life. Hmm, staying at home and rot. Maybe i can use the time to rest and do some planning too. Sudden i feel like my passion for judo is found back. I want to go training and see my oldmates. I think i should set a day for training to catch up with all judokas.

Sometime in every aspects, i think i should not expect too much, because the higher the expectation the bigger my disappointment. I should learn how to zone out myself. One of my brother in FSV reminded me that.
"Ming arh, really thank you man. I won't forget the times with you. Hope you won't forget a person like me. We shall meet up soon bah..Gd Luck in your new course =) Bro always behind you. Jia You bah !"

Alright update soon. Can't wait for holiday to come. Bye Peeps
Take Cares.. Weather has been cold recently.

I am just going to..

2008-11-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

Alright i am back for a post. It has been a long week.
Arh~ I am so looking forward to weekends. I can rest properly.
Woots~ haha tomorrow going to exercise ! I just can't wait.
haha ! But also got work to do at the same time. I guess it is the keeping

of a balance between this two. Yup! Hmm going off to do work now~
haha Bye peeps Take care =)
Chaos ~

If fate let us meet each other, there must be a reason..
If to part was for the better, i know that there is someone more suitable than me..
Lets promise for eternity..To stay happy as long as possible..Thats My Wish~
™wH!tE™

Hmm..

2008-11-19T02:01:00.000+08:00

I am back for a post. Arh! Hetic day. Lack of sleep. What the hell man.
aiya...haha..Tmr audio due. Sigh. Haven finish ~ =_= "
Alright going off now~ Jia You everyone !
Chaos~

Heavy~Work~Load !

2008-11-13T09:57:00.000+08:00

Alright, i am back for a post. Today is Thursday. The sky is so grey and it seems like it is
going to rain anytime. It also gives me a kind of chill and cold feeling which in return makes me
want to fall asleep. Hmm i believe that happens to everyone also. Haha, actually today Keenan, Hafiz, Aloysious
and myself are suppose to go for a swim in the school. But it seems like everyone is going to get some sleep due
to the cool weather. Well, i suppose we sleep when ever we can because the projects that are coming up it gonna
take our sleep away.

Talking about the assignments, i believe all my classmates feels the pressure but we need to cope with it.
Also, attachment stuffs has been bothering me too. Hmm, need to get it done asap. Hmm, I&E also. Sigh.
This is the busiest of my poly life so far.

Also the course manager actually spoke to us after the session of IBP and IAP. Then he ask us why our cohord
nv score more than 3.5 for all the top scorer. At that moment, everyone know why. We have set a target for ourselves
which is to AIM for GPA 4. We are through one and a half years of school semester and it is time we
buck up. So this semester i will call it the changing point. Yeah man. Change everything for the better !
I believe we can do it !

Alright i think i shall go do my work now. Chaos everyone~

™wH!tE™

Wat a friday !!

2008-11-07T15:00:00.001+08:00

Toady is e-learning day. I am in school because i can work better in school i guess?
More productive? haha but now i am bored to the max. Waiting for a room in library
because in the booking system they seems like all book ! But i still want to try to "ninja" a room.
haha, if you know what i mean lah. haha yeah man.

Yesterday, i went to celebrate Alvin's birthday then ate Botak Jones. First time there and i think
the food is really great but not as big as some of my friends have describe. But it was still nice though.
Then i got home around like 11 plus. Then did some research on my IAP stuffs. Hope that the company that i have chosen will prove to be goood because i will promise to work hard. Yeah ! Calling the company later, for the mean while waiting for Keenan Bro to arrive.

Looking forward to tomorrow man! It is gonna be exciting. hmm (^_^) haha !
Shall update tomorrow. Wheee~

" Live life to the fullest and shine as an individual !"
I believe every one is born to shine. In order to make other believe, i must first SHOW.

"The happy past shall become memories that lives in our genes and sadness will follow the ashes and dusts back to the ground."

Alright thats all for now. Need to go now. Chao~
™<-|-Wh!✠e-|->™

Not sleeping~

2008-11-04T04:57:00.002+08:00

Alrght the time now is 4:58! And i am mugging. Whooha~
Thanks man AUDIO TEST ?(=.=)" Wonder why i never sleep still so hyper eh?
haha..Alright i need to go back to study lo. hmm~shall update real soon =)
Gd Luck, everyone =)

Chao~ ™<-|-Wh!✠e-|->™

Where am i now?

2008-11-01T02:35:00.001+08:00

Now i am looking at the mac clock at the top right hand corner of my mac. It is 1:46AM.
I haven post for a long time already. Yah man, I have been mentally stress because i know what is
coming right in my face. Yeah man, i am also confused to choose about my where i should go in the future.
Should i go OIAP and intern in Taiwan or should i just have inter-ship in S'pore. I am really confused.
But even if i want a OIAP, can i even get contacts to ask? All these are question that i can't even answer myself.
But still i hope everything can work its way out if not i will work my ass off for it. That day i was in the preview
theatre, and i saw the prize giving ceremony. I definitely sank to the bottom but i still wish all those who got a cert =)
But somtime i think i work double hard for my GPA. But confirm somethings will screw up. I am just disappointed but
with what actually? Is it that i am really not good enough to be here? Or i should continue work hard? Who can see how hard we work? maybe a few close friends? But i know clearly myself i had. Maybe my good is not good enough.

Then i just finish my film hostory presentation. For one thing i am always weak at presentation but at least i try to speak up and bring my point across. For my point is when the person is presenting, the basic respect is needed. But still some fell asleep. I am just like are we lacking of some respect here? Anyway one line that my course manager said was true, "Nothing in the world is fair." I am starting to believe this line more and more.

I am so tired. Tired of everything. Why things is so hard for us? I just don't understand. I was there before and i did
all i can. But when things are gone they are really gone. Nothing much i can do about it. It is not something i anticipate in my way. I definitely hate myself. How did these happen? but still it is useless. The more we talk about it, the more complicated it can get. Just tired from all these. I did sang to you to express how i feel. But if i were to sing the same song to you, will it feel the same again? The answer should be obvious. Sometime moving on is hard, but if you are having difficulties does that mean i don't have at all? For these sudden change, even i need time to cool down. Well, i can be smiling in front of my friends but when i see that there is still some sadness that lingers on her, it triggers my mind and feeling to think back again. To walk down the memory lane, it seems sad for me. But in order to be fair and true to you, i have to say the truth. Whether can you accept it or move on, i can only help as a friend. It is really time we stop this and move on.

I should go and rest now.

"A smile is so easy to forge but what lies behind the fakeness is sadness."
聽著這首歌，我不停想起過去
該放手的愛，我不想再去強求
我只想說要你快樂的走不要讓寂莫找上了
好讓我的不安像裝上翅膀飛向天空
就讓時間平府望比此的下一個幸福更快樂。

晚安...

BAD DAY !!

2008-10-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

WAT THE FISH !!!
Alright, i am back for a post now. I am feeling rather upset over my wallet now.
It was meant to be a beautiful friday. But everything was ruined when i lost my percious wallet.
Sigh~After so many years in my life, this is the first time i lost my wallet. WTF ~ yah really man..
I file the police report and waiting for some kind soul to return my wallet. *LIKE THEY WILL* =.="
Yup, i mean thks for those who care and accompanied me. Especially Aloy !
He accompanied me to like alot of places in campus to report different kind of cards that were in the wallet.
Well, i mean really a BIG THANK YOU to him. And also to people who helped me and ask me over msn.
But really wanna apologize if i don't reply is because i am just thinking of my wallet.
Yah i know what lost is lost just like feelings also, hard to find back and hard to go back to the past.
But it is up to us to move on and learn from every mistakes that we have made.
Cherish what we have and not being stubborn on what we want. yah..
So i kind of wanna get ready to make my ex-link early in the morning. And i went to take photo.
After so long also. haha. Yah that explains the picture on top! haha~
Alright man, i shall rest now as tomorrow i am still going out with my brothers =)
Here is a song i find it very real and true to my life.
Alright peeps i shall update again! Smile =) Chaos~

歌曲 : 防盗锁

歌手 : 罗志祥
说穿了不是什么大事情
说穿了不过自己去看电影
说穿了只是睡醒看不到你
你放心离去我不要紧

为什么莫名有种矛盾的情绪
给了你祝福又盼望你回心转意
他给的幸福你从笑容就能说明
我还凭什么关心怎么你不抗拒

感情没有防盗锁
爱走不到尽头
不后悔付出过
各自回家的路
试着不再难过

变得成熟
是我能安慰自己
唯一的收获
就离开我别回过头
不要用从前看以后

我猜是我的错
爱怎么被偷走
那只是个感受
如果离开
是爱你最后的承诺

多年以后
偶尔记得那疯狂
不成熟的我
不说穿了
不要结果

为什么莫名有种矛盾的情绪
给了你祝福又盼望你回心转意
他给的幸福你从笑容就能说明
我还凭什么关心怎么你不抗拒

感情没有防盗锁
爱走不到尽头
不后悔付出过
各自回家的路
试着不再难过

变得成熟
是我能安慰自己
唯一的收获
就离开我别回过头
不要用从前看以后

我猜是我的错
爱怎么被偷走
那只是个感受
如果离开
是爱你最后的承诺

多年以后
偶尔记得那疯狂
不成熟的我
不说穿了
不要结果
不伪装了
我的难过

Friday

2008-10-10T14:52:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i work for 4 hours. And I was feeling like i am going to faint any time. But still i hang on.
To my surprise, there are alot of customer yesterday.
Yah, and i was struggling and didn't let my mom know about my illness. Then i rush home after that.
That was the worse i ever felt.

Today is Friday. I am lying on my bed and i am still down with flu.
The worse is i have a sudden headache now. I gotta stay strong.
I just don't understand my dad. At a age of 56 now, yet he is still thinking about gambling.
This morning when i was sleeping, he woke me up.
Then he ask me for my ATM card and say he wanted to withdraw $300 dollars.
My head was so pain that i didn't even want to ask why.
Later in the noon, my mom came back and shouted at me.
She ask me where did my $1000 gone too? I was very stunt.
I know that it was my dad. She then knew it too.
The difference between 300 and 1000 is really huge.
I save and scrimp every dollars or event cents i have.
I was preparing to buy a keyboard and maybe get a piano teacher.
I made a promise and i must make it in time, in 1 years time, for her.
But now, i must wait for a longer time.
I am feeling disappointed now.

In my relationship, i am still confused and i think one day i will know what status do i want.
Maybe i am not use to more than one more perosn or maybe i am too much of a perfectionist.
I don't know either. Thats why for this time i must be sure before i really go back.
But i am thinking how long do i need? I hope it is not too late when i have my answer.

alright peeps, i shall go rest now. Take care guys !

I am sick

2008-10-09T16:38:00.003+08:00

I AM SICK!!

It has been a long time since i got a flu.
All thanks to my brother for sleeping in my room then spread the virus to me.
Then to my Dad. Yeah, using tissue like nobody business.
Nose block till i feel i am lacking of oxygen!
I believe no one really like the feeling of been sick too.
Especially when school is about to reopen,
I hope that i can recover before sch reopen.

Yesterday was Wednesday. I went for PPP (=.="). *Really boring eh..*
But when i learn to apply what i have learn then it seems to make sense.
Yup! My resume is half way finish only. I think i shall continue tonight (^_^)
Yup though i am sick i still have to go for work. Alright Ciao..

"I don"t understand why you block me from your blogspot. Does this help? What happen to you?"

Sunday...Not everday..

2008-10-06T00:09:00.001+08:00

Hello people, i am back for a post.
Basciially on Friday, I went to Jurong Point with Dear Dear.
We went to watch the movie "CONNECTED".
The plot of the story and stuff is exactly the same as what i learn in class.
Totally love the movie now. People who haven catch the movie should go now!
Alright the day was fine actually =) Then i headed off to work.

Then on Saturday, i went to gym with my B'clan Bros. Great work out yo! haha
Kenn was late because he wants to find his pants. Then we waited and waited..
But nvm anyway, after gym-ing then we went to makan. We were damn hungry!
When we are going home then Pigggy sen, pang seh us and then acc Yu chin go buy his food.
Then i headed for work again.. =) Great Day with them.

Sunday.. haha, met up with the B clans bro to play basketball. Muscle aching and hmm..
But overall was alright. haha..Then we went to eat the zhi char stall. Wa Piang !
Me and my brother like want to slap the auntie like that. If she don't feel like serving then dun do it !
What attitude she give man? hmm, but still no point spend my time or brain juice thinking about this.
Then I went home with my brother and we watch Doraemom. haha, very nice man !
Now i shall go spend sometime with my guitar. Long time since i touch it.

" Great responsibility comes along with maturity.."

Chaos Bye peeps =)

I am thinking...Shld i ask..

2008-09-27T00:25:00.001+08:00

As things goes..i am thinking.
Should i do something to make my life easier?
Is it the definition that i want?
So many questions that being to question my firm thoughts..
Now that the challenges i guess..
I wanna sleep now..I just want to close my eyes and go to my dreams..
Gd night everyone..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VfeQGYNp3-I

nice song..hmm..

Silent Roams the living room..Reflection..

2008-09-26T03:20:00.000+08:00

It is 2:43 now..Late in the night, i am still awake.
Real wide awake. I can't sleep. I am worried about her.
How shld i put my worries into words?
I want someone to teach me.

Some say love is complex but other says love shld be simple..
Some say love shld be expressed but other says there isn't a need..
Some say love is priceless but other says it is something u shld consider if u can't afford..
Some say love is easy start but other says it is hard to maintain..
Some say love is lovely but no one says it is not gonna be hurtful...
Some say love is hard to define but I say the other you have is the right answer..
Isn't it?

I am in a confused state right now..
i feel like turning into another quiet side of me..
Sometimes i think we can't just look things on the surface..

"Let things go by its flow and see how far it goes
no one say there's no forever but we know far better than others..
Just let love grow maybe one day the truth will bloom.."

I am going to bed now..Tmr still have to help my mom to do stuff.
So much things to worry about..
Gd night then..Before i go to sleep i want to introduce a song
by Jam, a taiwan artist..till then Sleep well everyone..

原谅我
作词:阿沁陈天佑吴易纬作曲:阿沁
演唱:萧敬腾

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得

我难过我才懂

Ended:3:40 AM Mood:???

L.O.V.E.

2008-09-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

It is 1.09 now. I am not dreaming. I am singing to my dear dear.
hmm, i did it man. It was no easy task. haha, hope she loves my singing. Blea !

Alright today wednesday i went to swim with my B clan bro! yeah man exciting day =)
Then i teach SiKang bro how to swim. Hmm, not a bad experience. haha !
Just need to buck up bro ! Can do it de =)

Tuesday, Dear dear came to my hse =) then i brought her around my district and then we went to eat.
Then we went to my house and watch japanese anima. haha! "Hitman Reborn!"
"Ciaossu !" haha.. =) Thks dear dear for the time =)
Then i show her the surprise i did for her =)
Dear dear i am sorry and i hope u like my drawing ! =)

Thursday going to watch the movie MIRROR..hehe alright tooo!
I shall update soon.haha
Ppl pls take care and enjoy the holis cause it is ending soon!
haha..alright CIAO =)

ILY, DEAR..muacks

Ciaossiu

2008-09-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Ciaossiu !! haha *New way of saying hello ! =)
Alright man, since a long time i post. Actually alot of stuffs happened.
Firstly, i must thanks my secondary school friends for celebrating my birthday early.
They totally surprise me like OMG. It was all well-planned and man, i love it.
They bought the NIKE shirt. I love it arh, Thks ppl =)
THANK YOU LIST: Alvin, Zhao Xiong, EIleen Lim (HAHA), Faw Hui, Xia Lian, Nicholas, Leon, Terrence, Tedmund.
After the surprise we went to chill out at coffee bean and then parted. I went to my grandma house over at Holland V.
I miss them so much. They are like so poor thing, work till so late then come home, haiz i hope i can do something for them.

Then i left in the morning, cause dear dear is coming to my house. Then i realise i took the wrong bus. WOAH SIAN~
haha nvm still manage to reach home in time. Have a great time with dear dear and thks her mom for her mooncake.
haha, gd day after all. shall go rest now..woah tired...
BYe peeps! Stay happy always =)

" It is not about what you are that matters in life, it is how you make use of what you have to make a differences in life."

" When love is in the air, i feel that we are in heaven..."

When love begins to grow unknowingly...

2008-08-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

A date that leaves a mark in my life...
30/08/08 =)

WAR WITH COMPUTER ANIMATION !!

2008-08-14T15:20:00.000+08:00

"Hello people, i am blogging at FMs block level 52!! Oh my god..My war with computer animation hasn't finish.
It drags from last week till NOW!! I am going to win no matter how!!!?? My robot height 50cm, Width 30cm,
special weapon: SPEARING PAIN...HAHA, MY WEAPON OF DESTRUCTION, i call it G.O.D. !!
It means GADGETS.OF.DESTRUCTION...Wheeee! The war is coming to an end soon.
What leftovers will be the memories in Computer animation room... I really pray for a triumph over CG !"

Ok, back to real world...As you can read that is the animation world in my head. haha maybe i am too much into this.
OMG man..haha.But still today is the last day before deadline. So yah, i am all out for this. Also, to Ming bro that don't feel
guilty, cause you got a special reason so i don't blame you. But if i ever nag that is because i am too tired or sick of CG.

Next up is camera and lighting. Hmm, another big BOMB waiting for me. ARH ! Shooting on this sunday. Hope that everything is fine =) * Miracle please happen in my life.. I need you guys now.." Whoo ok drop this subject.. Moving on..

I am looking forward to saturday night and watch dark Knight =) =) =)
ok peeps i shall leave now and take a rest.. =) Jia you for everyone =) -)

Yichee : " I will confess soon...once i am done with studies...i will say how i feel..."

Disappointed

2008-08-06T00:43:00.001+08:00

I am back for a post. Soon i will complete my 2 assignments and i am ready for the holiday.
Computer animation and Camera and lighting project 3. This 2 major but i feel i am so unprepared.
Nevermind =.= Tomorrow morning i will go school and do my work. Yeah man.
I am meeting my Ming Bro tmr. As for camera and lighting, yeah i will be shooting one day before the deadline.
I am so worried. But still i pray for everything will be smooth and cool for our shooting crew >.< *cross finger*

Now something more deep in my heart. This shit feeling happens every year. Every year it must happen at least twice.
What the hell is wrong with my life? Or is it because it is all fated? As i am typing this i really really feel like
dropping a few tears to make myself feel better. For every time i admit i am such a coward. I can like someone
but my brain, my body, my mouth they just won't dare to say anything. I say i am feeling shitty is because i am tired
of all this. I am really tired. Sometime i think she is the right one but actually it is not what i think.
I like to voice out this part which is, "it hurts to be thinking you are in love but when you are actually not."
Yeah it does. When i don't know what is affecting me until i figure out now. When will be the day i will speak up?
Sigh, maybe never, For the current situation everything is still a question mark.
My only question is can she feel the way i do? Maybe i am too introvert maybe this maybe that..All crap...
I am just finding a reason to cover console myself or should i thank my past for making me like this?
Fear in everything...WHY MAN? There is someone out there for her, i think she no longer needs me to care.

I am so tired now. I need to rest. There is so many things out there waiting i can't afford to fall.
For now i just want a good rest. One thing for sure she is stuck in my mind. Gd night to everyone.
Sorry if my post affected you guys. I am just writing my thoughts.
If only i was brave enough to confess...

SUNDAY WHOOOo~

2008-07-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

Woke up early to wake a friend up..haha, kinda of surprise i did it..
Then i went to do housework and eat my breakfast. i ate a few quehs and i totally love it.
haha..since a long time since i ate lo, hehe =) Then i went to continue my script.
I am finding a new way to make my script... hmm, maybe enough for me to pass? haha
I know where i stand and i really suck at this part, oh well...nvm
Yup then talk to my younger. haha, funny can we both play till crazy liao...
Then we both got change and he goes to change his handphone and i went for basketball.
Hmm, he is having a good life man, can change phone. haha

When it is time for basketball, man i am all awake ! Whoo~
Today play as a rebounder, and play at a OK standard.
Well, not that good yet. Need to train up my shooting.
Totally gg man. Out of 8, i got in 3 only (>.<).. Total GG man (T.T)
Then there comes this team. Hmm, their playing style is they play rough.
So we all had no choice and play at their standard too.
My lips is cut because of them man. I got the rebound and 3 people comes to hug me.
Then i was total piss off when i SHAKE HARD to make everyone off me. Walao, this one call basketball arh?
Hmm, now my lips pain arh! Hope that it will recover soon. Smile = )

Wah, today sunday, tomorrow monday! Whee! school tomorrow =)
Got lots of assignment waiting to clear !!! Need to rest well and charge for tomorrow =)
Yah man, I am so lazy to start on my script again.. hmm, but do i have a choice? haha
No man, shall crack my damn brain to produce a story. haha
Shall stop here i guess =) Post when i am free =)
BYe peeps =) Smiles always =)

做人就是要開開心心的，是不是？

Unlucky man...

2008-07-16T07:39:00.000+08:00

Alright, i am back for a post. Woah, my day did not started well. Ep scheduling screws me man.
I thought i can close the application and open today. To my very horror, it tells me application error.
I was like what the hell? Aiyo, then nvm i go re-install 2 times. And then STILL CANNOT (T.T) Argh~
After that i totally give up and just send a e-mail to my lecturer.
Woke up early in the morning to see this shit happen~

Then i went to school for the meeting of history of rock and roll.
Aiyo, many people last minute cannot make it. Then GG.
Then our last group member like appear last minute then, hmm...
I am lost at the start. But in the end, i gave her some work.
Like 2 weeks of lesson, never see her appear before. Nvm hope she do the work also.

By day was better until i saw Keenan. We play abit at the bus-stop. And he SCOUT with me.
haha. Keena you know what i mean =)
Then talk with Angela =) She cheer me up =)Thanks to her man.." SHI BU SHI ?" haha
Thanks to Bro ming for the new skin also. haha.
Now need to work on 5 assignment already. Sounds tough~ BUt i can do it =)
Bye Peeps ! SMile Always =)

Waiting

2008-07-08T09:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah, i am back man. Dug out sometime to blog man.
I am doing animation now. Making the spider robot move.
But I need to render and note that it takes up to hours.
I feel so dead man. Hmm, whatever man, i am gonna do it.
An accident happen as well. I went over to Fiqa's table.
I just GENTLY slam the table. Hah ! then her screen went black.
I was shocked like no body business.
" I am sorry Fiqa, that was not on purpose. At least you didnt work on a computer that is spoilt, right?"
Yah, hope that everything is fine for her. Sigh~ i wonder if there is anything i can help.
Alright, later having dinner with Keenan. It is because we are both stuck with the CG. Argh !

I am looking at the frame now.. *Counting* " frame 239, 240, 241, 242, 243, 244, 245, 246...."
Hmm, I think i shall write a song for Ming. A chinese one. Just you wait bro. I will work on it.
Yeah, i am like gonna make myself fit. Exercise from today onwards. Hah~ Get Fit, Fats Free !
Ok man, shall stop here. People JIA YOU =) haha
Bye peeps~

Waiting

2008-07-07T17:46:00.001+08:00

Posting

2008-07-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hellos, back for a posting. Well things are not really good.
Er, assignments are also like super fast. It is because they come in combos.
Haha, not the Long John Silver combo. ok LAME...i know...
But seriously i need to buck uo if i want a GPA of 3.3.
Hmm, thats my aim. I am trying very very hard. So Jia You for myself =)
eheh now i am in fmss. Everything is run by us. And i am i charge of a movie marathon.
People who reads my blog , if possible, please support me =)
Your theme for that night is Comedy. Movie has not been decided yet.
One of the movie might be AUSTIN POWER GOLDEN MEMBER.
Well, shall say to be announce* TBA.

Erm this is to a special friend, Petrina
" happy birthday man =) hope that things are fine for you. Wish you every year also can be pretty pretty =)
haha."

People might be wondering why i put here. Well, that is because her blog is close down already. So Yah.
She might not even know but i think it is the thought that counts

Next up is ANGELA !!
" eheh random girl.. haha.. Wish u again, Hope u every year can smile like nobody business. Your present still with me.
Shall give u a surprise.. SHHH~"

This case is because she don't want to disclose her blog to me, ask me to guess. So no choice loh. haha
So yup shall stop now. Tmr there is class. Also got deadline. Argh.
Gd night peeps!

Ready to change...

2008-07-04T08:10:00.000+08:00

hehe

2008-05-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

Alrighto..haha i am back for a post on my very blog..
It has been a long time since i blog again.
In fact it has always been like this. haha.
Let rewind and go back (Don't find the button...haha)
Ok, let see my six deadlines, haha
Totally nail them one by one man..
Well also this cause me to have affect my sleep.
Haha but ytd i totally sleep until like no one business man.
The weather is great for sleeping =)
When the weather is too hot i complain
when it rain i complain also.haha..
Humans have never ending desires.
I just wanted to join my frenx for bb today and the weather is like totally...
Yes, you know what i mean man. Then being call back to work also.
I really had no choice. Anyway nice day though.
hmm, maybe sometimes we have to take things lightly especially feelings too...
It is just too easy to develop and too hard to get rid off..
Well, haha back to the topic.
I am so glad that i recorded a short 1 minute of Jay chou song.
What's so special? I sang ! haha
totally cool man
also i want to say something to my BRO MING MING
" Sometime to give up something u love is difficult but dun forget
i will be here for u. I had been there done that. I bet u too. I see that u did everything for her
I hope u will not feel any regrets with your choice u made. Anything i will be there.

LOve Over therE...
LOve Over herE...
the love we long for seldom appears...
even if it does...
CAn wE really Own and become ours?
A question to think when there is no answer..

OK peeps gd night man =)

BAck

2008-05-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

I am back from a busy week. I am feeling a bit recharge now because i slept for a few hours.
I hope that my effort will be paid off in every subject. I really really pour in my heart to do.
I am in FMSS committee now. Yeah sort of officially now.
I just wish to contribute a bit of my time and keep my life busy from thinking other things.
Yes, complete assignment is like having a rock off your heart. I bet a lot of people know how that feels.
I really need some rest now and i mean long hour rest. But they other assignment are beginning to chase me now.
Argh..Run Run..haha lame..i know..Just like to crack jokes to release stress..Yeah man..
Alrighto~ i think i shall keep a short post.

" It takes a second to fall in love..
How long will i take to forget?
I am in a junction;
To go or to stay..
I am confuse and don't know what to say..
I leave everything as it is..
Hoping that the answer will find its way.."

Woah, ok inspiration comes and go..Thats all for this week..
Bye Peeps =)

wednesday

2008-05-08T03:43:00.000+08:00

I am in school now. Being damn extra early, there is a reason behind it.
Early in the morning, i woke up and then after i wash up i had a tiff with my younger brother.
We argue for a pair of socks. It is obvious that secondary school don't allow student to wear ankle socks.
I just merely pass a comment that he should not wear then he started to be unhappy about it.
But the point is if you know the rule they why do you still want to go and break it?
Or is he trying to prove how stupid he is? It just make me so piss off.
Them he started to say things like, "so what do you want to do now?, come punch me lah?"
I was like " but the point is if you know you cannot wear then what is the point of you breaking the rule?"
He replied "I happy leh..Cannot arh?" hmm, i was fuming by that time.
Then i went to the kitchen to have my breakfast.
I was eating halfway and i realize that there is a tiny little winy stone in my noodles.
I was like "WHAT THE FUC*" Why all of a sudden there is stone in my noodles?
I totally lost my appetite man. Sigh~ What a way to start a Wednesday,right...
NOw is 12:30 PM. There is half of the day left. Let me see...
I have a interview today and i need to try finish room modeling and also STORYBOARD !!! Argh~Shit it is so pack >.<
Alrighto~ BAck to 2 days Ago..I went to watch IRON MAN with You Ming. haha The movie was nice also.
Also specially thanks to him for taking out his precious time to accompany me. We discuss about something also.
He has his problem and i have mine too, hope one day we can solve it together =)
So i finally got to watch Iron man~ YEAH ~ CLAP ~haha~ LAME~
Then after that went to help my mom at the stall.
hah~ So yeah hope that my day will be sort of easy for me cause my earlier half already SUCK LIKE HELL~ARGH~
okok going to do my planning for camera and lighting..
BYE PEEPS =) SO THE MEANWHILE STAY HAPPY AND POSITIVE =)

IRON MAN..

2008-05-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

Monday..It was a fine day =)
Though the lecturer lessons was boring but the lecturers are very interesting.
haha yeah man, after lesson i went to watch IRON MAN with YOU MING..haha
The movie was nice. ALso wanna thanks him for taking out time to watch movie though he is busy.
Yeah man.. He got his problem and i got mine.. Hope one day we can settle them..
Alright enough of these entertainments..
Time to worry about assignment now. Sigh man~
FIrst up - Production Planning
Second up - StoryBoard ( Camera & Lighting )
third up - Production innovative and design..
LAst but not least- DESIGN COMGRAPH !!
Sigh~ i pray hard to leave thru this..
Cause i am typing and my eyes are half close =(
Wat a bad thing huh..Alrighto =) I shall leave now and do my work..
" FOCCCUUUUUSSSSS !!!"
Bye Peeps =)

Last time for this, i hope..

2008-05-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

I am back for a post =)
I will like to say:
"Sometimes i will ask, What are friends for?
Of course my mind will say they are there to help you.
But then there are different kinds of friends.
There are the one who care and there are some who pretend to care only.
And of course there are some that would lie to you too.
And what i have to do is pretend to not to know.
I dun wish to spoil anything in between nor do i want to make any comments about this matter anymore.
People who are reading this if you know who you are, i would like to say thank you.
Thanks for all the things you have shown me and i really LEARN from it.
For now i shall not let my mood be disrupted by this. Lying is not a good thing to do.
And once is enough, but it happen twice. If you don't want me to interrupt, just say i will leave.
No need to do all kinds of stunts. From now on i won't disturb you people again. "

Alright, my mind feels better now. I just want to say this out so as to clear things up.
yeah going to do all my assignment now. I hope tomorrow is going to be a better day.
From now on, i shall be happy. It is no point staying and pester over stuff. So yes.
Looking forward to next week is great. Presentation and stuff. Yeah man, going to enjoy every bit i have in my life.
And also thks You Ming Bro for being there for me..
I appreciate for all you advice and help, but i don't think i will continue something thats is not worth man.
I wish you all the best with you and her. Just remember you still have chance ..
For now going to do assignment now.
Bye peeps =)

the 101th post

2008-04-26T16:10:00.000+08:00

Hello~I can hear my own grumbling now stomach now..
The time now is 1300 and i am really going to search for food after this..
SO yeah. I had product and innovation design this semester man.
It starts at 8 in the morning and i really cannot think of anything in that lesson can be fun.
Hmm, today bascially we sat down for 3 hours draw and draw. My brain is not functioning well too.
All these D& T stuff it is just killing me slowly. Argh~ Found a new term : Self-pyscho-lation
It's purpose is to like tell oneself that this things is the way you think it is.
E.G. I believe the lesson is going to be fun, so the lesson will be fun.
I taught to a few of my friends man. haha~
Also today VERY HONOUR to have lunch with DOLLY TAY, TOM AND COOKIE! haha
Spend sometime in KAP craping and do something some shit stuffs haha~
All we have is fun man. Well also some stomach and mouth cramp.
This is due to too much laughter, haha...
Current song : 好朋友 by SHOW LOU
OK peeps~ gonna go now =) shall post tmr..
GD nIGht..
Chaoz~itchy

100th post

2008-04-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

i am in library. Now the time is 4: 16 and the time is still ticking.
I just finish my lesson, production planning.
Well, there is a reason why i suddenly appear in library.
I need to find a script and bring it to class next week. hah tats right.
But I just cannot find it man. This feeling really suck man.
Well, i am not going to give up and i am coming back tomorrow.
I am going to seek help from my seniors. hehe
I am feeling kind of tire and still i have cca ard 6.
I hope that cca can be fun today. If not i am planning to join photography club.
I am still counting 1 hour and 37 min to go...
yeah man~i didnt eat lunch and i don't feel hungry at all haha..
Miracle man..
Something interesting to mention about..
My lecturer is late for today. hehe
And he is still want to act cool and stuff~ hah~
I think i will stop here. Because this is getting no where.
Ok peeps going to rest now..
Current mood: confused and tired
Music: "My wish"
My heart says: "It is obvious, isn't it? "

2008-04-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

I am back from work..i am feeling tired..
haha, yeah also today went to collect my new spectacle.
It is in black and i like it man, maybe others might not.
I don't know but i feel as long as i like it that will do. haha
Second week of school is rather still cool.
Also like to mention about product and innovation design.
It is about DnT stuff. I was like what the hell man (T.T)
hmm,well since i picked it then i shall deal with it man.
So yeah, after this i am going to continue my revision man.
What a fix and bored life style. But i guess thats the way it is. Hehe..
Also tmr there will cca tmr. Yeah =) shall bond with the people in Song composing club man!

Also not to forget ytd i celebrated my friend's birthday..LEON !! WISh u AdVanced happy Birthday..
haha

My heart says...
" Do you feel the way as i do? I am really wordless now.. "

Alright peeps..shall stop here..maybe a post tmr..Bye and nights
Chaoz~itchy

second week of sch

2008-04-22T07:16:00.000+08:00

now time is 4:10..i am working in the lab alone..
I just finish a banana i bought at canteen one what is left over is my vatisoy.
hmm, this feeling is just weird. Working alone in the lab make me feel...
hmm, maybe like a dropout. Anyway i am busying with the first project "house modeling".
yeah man. sounds cool but the process is a pain man. haha yeah and i am going through it now.
Also i have my earphones in my ear blasting the song "I wish" by Rascal flatts.
I just love the lyrics. People who don't know this song, i strongly recommend it =)
Ok i am just chilling out for 10 minutes and now back to work. I need to be discipline and on task.
Yeah so peeps =) see you ppl ard man, i think i want to blog tonight again,hehe
Chaoz~Itchy

Early

2008-04-21T02:20:00.000+08:00

Alright, the time now is 11.00AM..
This is one of the earliest saturday that i ever woke up..
Then i choose blog man..How cool is it?
Hmm, lets sum up wat happen in the frist week of my sch..

Monday
I woke up early and went to school with high spirits. Then i was so happy to see everyone.
I have computer graphic every monday. I can say there is less things to look forward too.
BUt who knows man, it may be fun sometimes. I will try to be more attentive in the class.
Then is the course manger, i found out Andrew is teaching us. Well, i must work TRIPLE hard to get
an "A" this time.

Tuesday
I realise that i have no lesson on tuesday. Haha, i am so happy about this.

Wednesday
I have lesson like production planning like 1 to 4. After that i would be going home.
Then i join a CCA call "SONG COMPOSING CLUB a.k.a SCC" haha, and their audition freak me put man~
Anyway i got pass and hope that my path in SCC will be smooth.

Thursday
Thursday is rather a long and dragging day. It is because i have lesson like script writing for 4 hours.
And yeah man~ it is such a drag. After that i went to help my mom in the coffee shop. Well, i like to say wearing jeans
in the coffee shop is REALLY hot man~ ALso not to forget my brother YOU MING who accompanied me for lunch. haha

Friday
I went to PRODUCTION DESGIN INNOVATON. I was like FUCK man..it is about D & T stuff.
I hate D&T to the core man~Why do i have to do something like this? Hmm, i believe that heaven have things happen for a reason and i hope that this will do me something good. I mean seriously. Then met up with Dolly for lunch. haha
We plan to go KAP. Then the campers came and we decided to go eat at atrium.
yeah anyway nice time bonding up with them man =) After that i was invited to go to a concert.
But i can't because i already agree with my friends for basketball already.
So yah, i shall join they all next time =)

SAturday
I woke up quite late like 3.Then went to work. I plan to make a new spectacle.
But due to the time constrain i didn't do it. yeah so i felt downhearted.
I like no life man~

Sunday
I woke up damn early writing this shit..haha
yeah going to make a new spectacle after this..OOps i realise i haven brush my teeth
haha..Stinks man haha
So yeah a summary of what happen in my life of first week of school

Now something more sentimental.
I hope that you know somebody loves you,
And your dream stays big your worry stays small,
I hope you choose the one that is important to you..

Alright i say leave it here, if she understands it will be good if not then never mind.
ALright bye peeps~

hmm

2008-04-17T02:24:00.000+08:00

After a long time..i am back...
Camp was definitely cool..yeah..
The place of a head GL definitely rock man =)
BOnding and talking stuff really brings us closer and just like to sat to all freshies:
" YOu ppl are Great and NIce man !!"

And now for something in my other part of life...
I jus wanna say..
Life takes unexpected turns and sometime it can leave u lost in a junction..
I am lost should i stop or should i go..Even if i go, how far can i go?
These feelings just feels so real and the dream just felt so real..
Hmm,what can i do to let you see?
I can't do much..
when ever i sees you, i have a feeling to hug u tight and tell you i like you..
but i know i can't because a fact has been told by my best friend...
This situation suck totally...

i think it won't make a difference...
Even if i try really hard...
Sometime i wish to be ur entertainer
Sometime i wish to be your soulmate
but when i realise you had someone to rely on
I felt like an extra..
All i can do is try to be a better man...
If one day u can see me behind you
tat would be the time when i will tell u the truth

OK back to sch stuff...
hmm..sch started and still i can say it is cool lah..
so yah..will update soon..
Bye peeps~

TO FMSS 08 EVERYONE: WE rock !! =)

a post in the sch = )

2008-04-10T16:32:00.000+08:00

lalala~ I am in sch, in the hanger..
Yucks* Known as the most haunted place in fms...
Erm. sleeping over here just to get ready for the GLs tmr..
Yeah..felling tired and full.. so yes!
I guess i am just sleepy =)
But i dun feel lie sleeping..haha..
TMr is gonna be exciting..yeah..
InDuction Day..
Yeah so i am goona keep this short and sweet..
I am gonna rock and roll..
Dance also..hehe..Yep
Gd night peeps~ Byebye and see u next time..

Lost but founf

2008-03-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

~ Lost But Found~

I am back, dudes..
haha..i felt that i had found back a part of me that was lost.
Judo. = "The Gentle Way" .
Yup. I went back for training.
Although it is two days, but i found back the lost part of me.
My fighting spirit. Maybe not all people understands this.
But people who practice martial arts might know what i am talking.
Everyday, i felt so tired and sleepy everyday. Woke up with a dead mind.
I was worried that i can't cope with the training, But who cares!!?
As usual i will tell myself: " It is time to rock and roll" haha~
Yah, i found something that was precious to me.. Hah~

And also the perseverance and hardwork.
I was in so much pain when physical training.
But i told myself never give up, if not i am not going to forgive myself easily.
Juniors are also very nice though, respecting me ,in spite of abandoning them for 2 years.
Hah~ " I show guys my moves too! So we are fair guys...haha.."
Yup, wonder what happen in the past, make me so unhappy and have a lousy mind and thinking..
HaH~NO matter what..
I feel better now..haha..

But as i said when there are good things happening around, bad things will come too.
hah~ I went to talk to my brother. Trying to talk to him to quit smoking.
But he was not happy about my actions and trying to stir up a argument.
WHatever it is, i was definitely over my limits and i scolded him.
He felt so pissed of like no one cares about him. But the truth is we care and we are worried too.
It is because one wrong step for him now can cause his future to be destroyed.
But he won't ever understand this. He thinks that his gang of friends are his best mates.
But he forgot no matter what happen, it is family members who are going through with them.
I fail as a brother and i just want to try to amend things. But he is shutting his door.
So how could i even reach to him?
hah~ i guess i just have to keep trying and trying..

Also GPAs are out...
I was wondering should i be happy or not.
It is because i improved but not good enough.
So i just have to work harder for next semester!! KamBatei !!!
Also changing of class is the most terrifying thing as you won't know who are your classmates again.
haha wat eva man! Changes are inevitable, so yes, face it =)
So bye peeps..
Gotta go now... =)

I am back

2008-03-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

What's up everyone! HOw are your holidays man?
Haha, all of a sudden i feel like posting.
i am now walking down my memory lane to see what i can write.

On the last five day of February, i went for a chalet organize by my secondary two classmates.
I had fun definitely. We stood up late to play games and talked among ourselves.
Also not forgetting to see my secondary schools brothers getting drunk after drinking too much Vodka.
They are "Alvin & Leon" , We were all busying stopping them cause they were not aware of what they are doing actually.
haha. Well the next day i ask them they remember anything, they replied that they can't remember.
Damn funny... And i kept teasing them.

Day two

We headed to rent bike and cycle around. I missed the times when i can cycle.
THose breeze going against your face and your problems are far behind your head.
Then they went to play kite and Alvin became crazy again. haha. Thumbs up for you bro =)
As for me, i did not join them. i went to sit on the stone or should i call it...I don't know how to describe either.
Just stare at the sky as it goes to sunset slowly and sea breeze was so nice =))
So people who love the sea and love to enjoy the breeze should know who to contact... haha..

Well, i get my mind clear and stress gone when watching the sea.
Also got reminisced in the small past that i used to have.
Maybe that is the time when i know how to smile even when i am sleeping.
MAybe i am too emotional, but at least i know how to control and didn't reveal too much.
Only me and myself know what's going on in me.
I am clear that i am not sad, but it is just that when you look back those memories really matters.
Whether is it some relationship thingy or secondary school class memories, i have to say " i remembered VIVIDLY"
Only i came to realize there are always always friends who are there for me =) Deeply appreciate

They are ALVIN ONG JUN JIE , JACKSON LIM ZHAO XIONG, EILEEN LIM YU NING.
THanks them with lots of brother-hood-ness...haha..

Day three

I was needed to attend a compulsory meeting so as to get in to the camp this year for the year one.
So i packed up my stuff and leave in the morning. Thanks Alvin for sending me. haha, i nooob lah..can?
So got a LONG LONG bus journey. Then i reach home.
When i reached home, i went to find a good shirt and prepare to go for the meeting.
I was ten minute late. But guess what being a FIlm and media studies student, it is a tradition to be late.
So i was like "oh shit" i was late then "oh yes, You are late too =) "
haha, Enjoyed the meeting and did some catch up with some of my poly-mates.
Also to mention, this is the first time i touch a girls PAD.
It is because i was asked to give a last minute commercial about that thing and i was so shy. =_="
haha, but we had fun anyway, =)
Now is to wait for result. So i headed home and change clothes and went to work at my mom place.
I was so tired because the previous night ii slept for two hours.
So i was like dazing when i reach at my mom stall. haha! can't blame me either.

So Friday i woke up and went to gym. haha Shake off my fats.. ^_^
I went to run for five did some weight. Then met up with my basketball brothers and "chiong" with them.
Play as a team, win as a team. =) B Clan rocks =)
So yes, recently i fell in love with Narouto. I wonder if i spell correctly. haha. Sry for all the fans for this show yah =)
I did not mean to spell wrongly.
So i am going off now.haha. Need to do other planning for my coming month.
I find that i a getting abit slack. Not going to let myself do so.
haha...Camps coming up. OMG !So excited =)
So take care peeps and Gd night..

TO 2E3 04's : i love you guys, we rock as a class man =) Hope every year we can meet up like this =)

wat the hell man..

2008-02-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

I understand at times but sometimes i don't. I don't know how to put into words either.
Is it better just have ignorance over certain matters?
As in i am so confused now and i can't really find words to put in my blog.
Wateva man, i choose not to care already then i shall not.

Anyway i came back. I feel so worn out now. haha, but i still choose to blog.
People blog for certain reasons. I wonder why i blog for? haha...
I think i just want to have a place to pour out my words.
No readers?? nvm lah, you want to care you tag thats all i can say.
Hmmm, On the 21 this month celebrate one of my brothers birthday.
LIM ZHAO XIONG ← My brothers for 4 years now is the fifth years already..
haha i wish brothers forever. Anyway went to shop for his present. Me Alvin and eileen
bought him a belt and clothe, hope he will ♥ our present and appreciate our efforts. haha.
Well, also not forgetting to pamper myself.
I bought a pair of harvarness slippers. Erm wonder if i spell it correctly.
Who cares anyway, haha. So happy to owe one. It has been part of my dream to have one.
Then for that day, i taunt at his house. They play majong i almost fell asleep..
When they play Back jack, i chiong there sia. When i don't play, they won money.
When i join them play i win they lose money. Ask me to scram off . haha. of course i did not.

Ok then went home ard 8 in the morning. I slept for 4 hours then went to gym to pump up my "CHICKY" ( MUSCLE )
then i went for basketball. Meet another bunch of brothers. haha. They are cool man. Well, my performance for tat day was rather well. I was happy,

So yes then went home and sleep.

Then today i woke up and went to cut hair.
haha, who knows i saw my basketball brothers again =)
They also went to cut just that went to different shop.
Then we talk and waited for bus. cool bunch of brothers.
Then went to work at my mom stall. Today got a small "slam" (crowd)
woah, i was almost blur. haha.
NOw i blogging... Monday going for chalet, i wonder if i can make it.
Haix~ with no one helping my mom, i cant set my heart out to the chalet and play.
I am worrying she can't cope. I think i will be going for the first three day only.
I am left with no choice. Xiong, Vin and others if you guys can understand my situation is the best man
ok nw going off to rest early.
Gd night peeps. Sleep early =)

wat the hell man..

2008-02-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

i am back

2008-02-20T06:20:00.000+08:00

I am back to my old and comfy place.
I miss those times when i can blog everyday.
So no need to say assignments have been getting on my neck for the past few months.
I struggle to shake them off. MUhahaha.
The sense of achievement is rather fulfiling.

I want to thank Keenan for being my partner for 5 out of 6 projects.
haha, you have been a great partner dude! =)

And also Keenan has bee pestering me to say about the Phrase " today is a good day "
haha.. I think only me and him understand only, haha.

Okie so ytd just wend to see our screening our photography last assignment.
haha, so funny for our video and others too.
I guess our effort really paid off spending so much time and effort and we got into the " A & B" categories.
Just praying to get an "A". =_= ...

Also something i want to say to all.
Yesterday i was taking to LRT while on my way to school.
I saw a uncle with his face bleeding on his left side of his cheeks. ( Some where under the eye bags)
And the wound was quite deep. I was so stunned.
The first idea came to my mind " Where is his family members?"
I could not help as i was on my way to school. If i can help i will help. I was thinking about it on my bus journey.
Feeling so bad and thinking what will happen to him?

And i am going to be a year 2 student after this holiday =) haha!
Alot of things i need to do on this holiday...
Hmm shall go and plan and mention on my next post =)
Bye peeps and enjoying your holiday =)
For those who are taking exams, i wish you all the best =)

Smile to your problems...

2008-01-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

When i am back, there are always bad news..
haha..well what to do? Lets talk about my recent test.
After effect test was a disaster.
I tried my best to do everything but it seems that i don't have any talents on this subject.
Anyway i don't plan to work on industry that are like this may be due to my stupid-ness.
But that does not mean that i am giving up, there is still a big project coming up.
I am gonna try to give it a shot. It is now or never.

Next is my Intro to film. It is all my fault.
I am so stupid to have forgotten about the instruction that she gave us.
In the end, i gt a C+.
Of course it is abit demoralised but not point crying over spilled milk.
I only have myself to blame,

Lastly i am sad that i am not chosen for FMSA.
The reason behind is becasue people who did not went to interview still get a chance to go.
I am saying "What on earth is happening?"
i feel abit down inside me.
When i thought 2008 is a new year new beginning, i begin to really doubt so.
Anyway it is only the first month and there are other 11 more month to go.
so i should look on the brighter side. okie~ going nw.
Bye peeps ans hope u can smile to your problems and face them bravely. =)

New year New hope

2008-01-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of 2008 also it marks the new beginnigng.
I wonder what is install for me in 2008.
But no matter what it is, we must be strong and face it,isn't it?
" Smile and face it," haha...It just struck me like this.
Well, piano is still importat to me. So now i will want to think of ways to save and earn momey!!
So this is like a math problem sum...

{ Piano } + ( Studies } + ( Work } / 2 efforts = Hard work !
So if we want to slove this eqn, bring the two over =)
it means { hard work x 2 effort} !!
yes..i think that is enough of my crap already.
Also i just completed half of my photography assignment.
I need to head down to collect my dear photos tomorrow.
The reason i call then dear is because thay really took me alot of efferts to took them.
Whats more is i am not using a DIGITAL CAM!! ( CRYS...)
I am using a film cam. I took around a total of seventy plus photos.
i am sure it is gonna cost more that a bomb which means my pocket is going to have a BIG BIG hole.
i going to complete my other assignments now because if i don't then i predict i might never make it in time.
Bye peeps. May all your wishes come true =)

Jus a post

2007-12-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

i am missing for a very long time..
i lost the feel to blog already...
I also dun know either...This few weeks i am just not feeling right...
Everything is so weird...all i wish is to run and to be away...
Maybe everything is too much again...
Also i felt that my blog is dead...
i wanted so much...but what i can do is so little...
How far am i exactly from my dream? No one knows...Not even me...
i am jsut dreaming everything and everyday...
hoping that i can be the light on the stage playing piano...
But i have no money for lesson...Lets not mention a piano...

Why?? Why do you have to gamble away the money and my dreams?
You are already 55 and you want to gamble so much?
You made mom cried...brother dislike you...
And you think this for no reasons?
I thought you would do some self- reflection...
You didnt !! You told me : "Ah Chee, I can rather chooose not to eat because i want to gamble..."
And you..the bread-winner of the family...
You work but you cant even provide urself a proper meal for urself? You expext me to respect u ike this?
How? can u teach me? Just because u are my father?
Do you really want me to throw away my social life and just made my poly life only study and work?
wat am i gonna do?

Christmas is on its way...
Other people can spend their christmas happily..
i always cannot do it...Shit always happen before this day..
It can be months ago, weeks ago, days ago or even a year ago...
Well....no point...totally no point...i already become a half saddist...half loner...
I dun want it either...

My Words...

A voice always wanting to sing
he can't..he dare not...

A heart wanting to touch piano
he know..he cant afford...

A number of songs that he wrote
he understand...Crap is the word for all..

A hopeless person waitng for miracle
he prays...hopelessness is all he got...

A tired mind over loading with thoughts
he tries...Throwing the thoughts out of his mind..

A sincere man waiting for Miss Right
he waits...Till the day he stands at ending point...

~The End~
Merrry Christmas in advance to Everyone out there i know...
Dun be affected by my post...i tends to pour my emotions here...
(oops maybe u guys are not even reading...haha ~ it is okie..i am long-winded)
erm..so yup..Bye peeps...

Long time..

2007-12-09T03:31:00.000+08:00

hi..everyone..
Hope that my blog is still alive..haha..
okie...as usual i am lame..
Well..dun want to put anything emotional here..
erm..so yes it had really been busy..
haha..assigments are coming in like they are in a race..haha..
i bet u know how i feel if u are from FMS...
okie..haha..but i still tackle it one by one..
Nw only left a few before the "half time"..
haha..So yah..working damn hard nw..
*So tired =.= ""

And recently went to starbucks to help out again..
It was all serious fun..thought there are new partners..
But i guess it is the atmosphere that bonded
the past and present partners together in such a short while..
haha..have fun at there anyway..then i was all ready to set of to my friends Birthday..
" Fah wai, Happy Birthday ! hope u like the surprise..haha.. Smile girl =)"
YUP..4 years of friends..i guess i shall not use friend..
We are already like family..

So yah..working on a new song nw..arhg!!
i need a space and inspiration..
okie..can only hope for holiday..
Also i need a digital camera for assignment..
Hope that i can borrow one from somebody..
okie i going to have dinner nw..
Bye Peeps.. =)

Feeling bad..

2007-11-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

hi..guys..
I am back with sore eyes...
Tat might sound amusing to some of you..
But to me it actually sound very bad..And I mean really bad..
Haven been feeling good these few days..
NO mood for anything either..
Haix~When bad things befall..I can only pray for the best..
Later at 12 i am having studio production test..maybe a small test..
But i also wanna score..For a GPA of 3.3 or above i really want to push myself to my limits.
also to see how far can i go..I guess my sore eyes cant stop me from this..
I shall recover soon, if not then i shall go back again...Yup..
got to get ready.." You can do it!! Believe and have confidence.. =) "
Bye peeps..
People who are reading my blog i wish you guys all the best in ur exam and also take good care of yourself..
=) Bye

Stage fright

2007-11-08T07:47:00.000+08:00

Oh okie..I am just so relieved now.
haha..yup..Why is this so?
Prople who know me well should know that i have stage fright..
Just finiish a IAC presentation .. About terrorism.. haha.
i had no link with it cause i did not do the slides..
So i am like so sorry for not doing it..casue i did not know..
And i was like so shocked..last minutes..
It is like i am sitting in a class waiting for class to start..
Then they mention about presentation like so SUDDEN..
haha..i was like an ant on an boiling pot..
But anyway it is over..And there is much things coming up for today..
So yahx..=) smile on dude!!

CAMP..

2007-11-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

HEy..haha..
Just come from camp..
Oh my good..haha..
i feel so "tan" nw..
Well..First day of camp..was rather fun..
But one of our group member nv come..
so we decided to name after her..
then the theme was hawaii
Guess..wat..
Our gp name: PINEAPPLE PAMELA..
i know tis kind of sound wrong..
but wat are camp for?
Have fun and make more frens lahx..
Well..i did..and the second day was like..
Sentosa the whole day..yoyo..
And i was drench..NO choice have to remove clothes..
So then it is shoes..
Guess wat walking bare footed on sentosa is NO JOKE man..
then i was half naked..in side the bus, wif the tourist and my frens..
Omg..very very PS at tat time..
But who the hell care anyway..
it is a camp..
Then the nite before that is a performing nite..
we used Pamela to create a short poem cum lyrics..then we are like dummies act according to the story..
And we used our creativity to link, PAMELA, UMBRELLA, NATELLA, AND Gorzilla..haha..
yahx..then in the middle we have.."Ella eh..Ella eh..
haha..But after all i did enjoyed the camp..
One of the cheers..
" will u do it for ur moM?
NO!!!
Will you do it from FMS?
No!!!
Will you do it for pemela?
YEs..
Pamela pamela, pamela, pamela..!!!!!!
okie, i also want apologize to Fiqa..
i really cannot find the ring...
So i am just sorry cause i want to help but my GLs and community were like so cannot let me go..
i will stop till here..whether you want to believe is up to you..i can only say sorry..

Last but not least..I am doomed!!
go camp homework not done.
haha..Oikie..Gotta go nw..
Bye Peeps..=)

a date to remember..

2007-10-29T02:49:00.000+08:00

yahx..seems like long time nv touch my blog le..
haha..becox this is a target i set for myself..
so and yahx..i want o get a GPA of 3.3 for this semester..
So i gonna WORK HARD..
okie..erm..nw is 11:23, 28 october 2007
a date for me to remmeber..
haha..wat man..going emo again..
but erm yahx..i jus cant control..
it is all coming back again..
no matter how hard i try..
it took me some time to realise..
my emptiness are playing a trick on me..
i actually cant believe i was trying to forget everything so hard..
So fast..till i jus want to find a replacement..
tats was jus the wrong of me..
all the ways i did is wrong..what else can i do?
Some memories are just meant to be remembered
But some are jus meant to have it and forget it..
No matter hw nice they can be to you..
it jus cant live in my remorseful mind of mine
it easy to have it
yet it is so difficult to forget..
it is not i dun want but it is jus that i cant..
may i be the most hateful person to you in the world..
but my promise still remain untouched in the conscious mind of mine..

it is like we all have our lives of our own now..
it is useless to even say anything or do anything..
Some precious are lost, tats the truth..
Just really hope that she can be fine..
her contacts i lose it in purpose..
Just to see if i have the luck to ask from her again..

so..here is a piece..
i wanted to take part in the s-pop competition on channel U
but i think again..better not..i suck anyway..

《傻》
我回頭看一看嘴角微微笑笑
眼角的那滴淚說了什麼結局
你永遠活在我恛憶世界
再也越不過這一條戒線
看那晚的夜空聽你想說的話
結局我很明了我掛上電話時
滑下的眼淚和飛過的流心
就在那一順間的消失了
我是不是在裝傻還是我放不下
愛的不懂怎樣停我還想去挽救
我是不是愛傻了無結局的府出
還想著你會回來

筆記本的故事寫了什麼心情
每一業的日期說了愛你多久
時間就一分一妙的過去
回憶不斷放這美好恛憶
海邊是我們想去的地方
心心是我想看到的希望
我真的不是裝傻因為我的愛還在
我會好好收起來等你有一天回來
I will wait for u..

okie..next is to eileen..
yoyo..haha..make u laugh like no one business ritex??
hehe..yahx..i need to laugh more in life too..
so i make u laugh too..
hehe..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAn..b4 12 de lehx..hehe

nitex peeps..tmr have a VERY important thing to do..

wonderful day..

2007-10-18T15:25:00.001+08:00

yup..jus finish a bowl of fulfiling BAR CHOR MEE..
haha..before tat went to gym-ing..
felt tat need to work some muscle out and shed some FATS off..
haha..okie..jus being lame..
so nw stuck in canteen 2..dun know where to go..nw is 3:16..still so early..
so i decided to go home after this post..
i-tunes.is playing songs thru my earphone..
i realised one thing 99% of my songs are emo..
oh god ~ wat to do. this is me mahx..haha..
back to ytd..i was actually stupid..
actually there is NO IS CLASS !!!
haha..guess what i went in the class..
smile to everyone and trying to be polite and friendly..
haha..try did i found out i wa nt suppose to be in this week class..
damn pai sei can $!$!#@% ...then i walk out of the classroom and pretend nothing happen..
haha..i assure myself this kind of situation will not happen again..
okie seeems like there is a change of mood..due to the weather..
i am not girl why am i getting mood swing..haha~lame~
okie...gotta go complete my homework on mel...
bye peeps.hope tat my blur genes will not act up again and cause me to do some
stupid and dumb stuff..haha..

Sian~ Always too early !!

2007-10-17T12:16:00.000+08:00

haha..nw at blk 56 waiting for IS lesson..
First week of the sch..i already mix up the timetable..
what the hell..haha..How blur of me..
MAybe i was jus awake..then could not see the timetable clearly..
haha..then went to sch at 12..but lesson was at 1 !!!
Dumd Dumd man..
okie..rewinidng back to first day of sch...
haha..it was fine until i meet this Korean lectuer..he was totally 100% joker man..
he was trying to pronounce my name..guess what he said???
KOrean lecturer: erm..okie..next is "Pehyi'..
everyone was looking around who was this new female student..
then i realised it was my name..being read out the first 2 part only..
haha..what sia..okie..then we also had show on intro to film..
the shows was great but nw have to what to write on the dissuscion board..
cause we are going to evauate the movie !! first timer..
next second day was also filled with joyous fun.. =)
we had computer graphic..nw i learn hw to master Photoshop..haha..
then was studio production..tat korean lectuer again..
but the lesson was filled with fun but with a sense of serious-ness..
haha..then home sweet home..
and nw..i am stuck here waiting for my lesson to come..
Which actually ends at 5 or maybe 6.. okie.. (i forgot.....)
haha..no matter what..wish me tat my day will be a smooth one..
Bye Peeps.. ( ^ _ ^ ) v

blog..

2007-10-17T12:01:00.001+08:00

eh eh..

2007-10-11T00:17:00.001+08:00

hmm..missing from my bog a long long time already..
sch also gonna repoen soon..
haha..i realised this..
when attending sch we will hope for holidays but when holidays comes..
we will be too bored and ask for reopen of sch..haha..
weird cycle yahx..
okie..this SATURDAY working at starbuck AT 10-3...
then SUNDAY erm...oops unknow yet haha..
after so long i am going back again..jus for this two days..
i wonder if i can still make a cup of aromatic coffee..
hehe..or jus some kopi "siu tai" like what they order in the coffee shop..
maybe work too long in coffee shop liao..haha..
btw..Ankle is recovering at a marvellous speed..
haha..ready for this friday WILD WILD WET !!!!!
hehe..first time there yahx..dun know what's waiting for me..
Argh.. *fear + fun* no a so gd combination..haha..* RUBBISH..*

okie..nw for the second side of me..
i dun wish to talk much on this becox this isn't a personnal diary..
shall jus wrote how i feel..

For MOM :

" For all i know..
Just take my soul..
lighten her burden..
Put it on my soul..
May happiness be with her..
Smile everyday like she was never told.."

okie..haha..dun understand nvm..
take care peeps..
shall see u guys in np when sch starts..hehe..
take care and gd nitex..=) LalALALAlAlalaLAlA (^_^) v

Okie..

2007-10-01T12:40:00.000+08:00

Alritex..Nw only have seven minutes to blog..
haha..rushing to do hsework nw..
eheh..Okie..Kinda of stuck wif blogging life nw..

so rewinding back to ytd..
i went to grandma hse..
went there to rubbed my poor leg..
Arhx..I told her to rubbed harder..
But then she said no need...haha..
{heng arhx!! Ltr too much pain i will shout..then very pai sei de lehx!! }
then i suddenly felt very bad..Becox i didnt accompany my grandma very often..
i can feel tat she feels lonely sometimes..
espically when grandpa is gone..
i hope she is fine..
then aft rubbing my leg..i stay to watch tv with her..
then there is this sudden commerical which shows the
erm..grandpa and grandma walking in the park..
i then watched her faced..she shows nothing..
but deep inside i knw she misses grandpa..

Ltr in the nitex..i was working around her..
so i went to take a look..
cause this few days she vomited aft she ate something..
so i went to find her..and she asked me if i wants to share dinner with her..
so i said yes..
hmm..It has also been a long time since i had dinner wif her..
it is jus so nice..
I hope everyday can be like this..

And also..this is for Wan Qing if she is reading my blog..
I know u had some problem in ur life..
but dun lt affect ur studies,okie?
cause at tat time nt only u will be sad..
ur famly members will be sad too..
and u shld nt feel sad becox it is he who dun cherish u..
N the other way round..so i guess u shld study hard nw..
End of year exam is imortant..Do take care =)

And also i gotta go nw..
Bye peeps..
Take care and smile to face urs daily life =)

feeling better..

2007-09-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

erm..kinda of saddistic nw days..
yahx..yahx..i need to change abit..
can not always like tat arhx..
hmm..If nt i will have illness soon...
yahx..Life is doinf great..i shall not say life is fine..
Becox i have great things and ppl around me..
Went for gym and basketball...
And then during basketball...
haha..my luck was as good as compared to the past...
First i twisted my ankle..
then i haha..i act cool abit..
Give my opponent the Very fierce face..
cause they are nt my frenz..and my ankle very the PAIN ORhx..
haha..then i took a rest..
tats nt the end..i then went in to play again...
this time is i play wif my frenx..
haha..then one of my oppenent slam my thumb with the ball..
then start to bleed abit..
Aisey..NO pain lahx.. (haha..Jokin only lahx..)
then i see blood but i never faint..haha..
then i continued thr match although the injury was huanting me badly..
okie..haha..tats for basketball..

talking abt gym..
B4 tat i went to coffe shop with my 3 frenx..
i help my frenx to order noodle..
But then he come and order again.. (i Think he is mad..)
haha..okie..in the end 2 bowl came..
Dun know wat to do..
one of my frenz paid for the noodle and ate the ingredient cause thy noodles was Yucky!!
(Actually is my frenx too picky lahx..haha)
then we went to gym orhx..
we lied to the gym aunty..
i said: 4 students!!!
haha..We gt thru man!! wat a surprise..
then went to gym for some serious session..
Getting pump up..haha..
not like those freak who muscle are bigger than their heads lahx..
Have the cutting can already..

Then at nitex..headed for dinner..
Hmm..then headed for my sweet home..

also this is for ADEELA..

"hey..thks for ur words..I will remember them by hard..Though we are nt in same class..
But we can sill have lunch as a whole class..CHEERS!!haha..

Nitex Peeps..
i wish all of u sweet dream and sleep tight..

feeling better..

2007-09-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

THe end..

2007-09-22T16:25:00.000+08:00

erm..nw my laptop shows 11.36pm..
In around 24 minutes..my birthday will be gone..
erm..today still okie..
i went out with my bros..
They forgot my birthday..
but nv lahx..
i not so big shot wants everyone to remember my birthday..
but all i wish for is her wishes..
It seems tat my wishes are nt reaching anywhere..
maybe it is fated le..
it is my birthday..
i will try not to feel so emo..
birthday mahx..must be happy abit..
but hw?
i think i forgot how to be happy liao..
yup..

Time for a song..
hmm..feel like writing a chinese one today..

here it goes..
＜祝我生日快樂＞

過了一年又到這一天想起那種甜蜜的愛媚
我不可能忘記我已經放气
讓你在我身旁躺一躺
不管明天怎樣希望時間為我而停下
今年的生日你已經不在
我期盼的美麗已經隨著泡沒
忽然破了我想和你過的每一天
都在你傷我那一順間變成了一個不可能的明天

今天去年我是否真的愛過你
說好我不在想知道我不該想
我只能靜靜的說一聲
祝我生日快樂
昨天今年的我還想著你會祝福我
我的期望還沒讓我到達彩虹天堂
卻讓我看到世界沒日
我還要學會試應
每年沒你的生日
Ｏh~"happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me~" 祝我生日快樂 “

okie..the end..
erm..quite like this piece man..
okie..i am 17 nw..Nitex peeps..
Rock on ppl..
I am Emo..tats a fact..

Birthday..

2007-09-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday..
erm..
it is the day when i am born..
lame shit lahx..
okie..
haix~thks for all the ppl who remember my birthday..
for those who does nt..
thks anyway..
erm..nw is 1:02 in the morning..
Hope tat my birthday can be a happy one..
if nt then jus forget it lohx..
haix~17 years le...
jus hope tat my life can get better...
Jus got hurt in 2006 and 2007..
Hope tat towards the end of 2007..
Things will work out for me..
Nw in need of money..
trying to make a change over in apperance..
17 years old le..
And also i want to pick up one course tat i feared most..
Vocal Course in Lee wei song school..
so i can improved my vocal..and also go against my fear...
it is my birtday..and i am feeling weird..
I dun know why..
But jus abit sad..
Hmm..maybe the person tat i look forward most to wish me didnt do it..
well..i hope tat she is doing well too..

THIS PART IS DELICATED TO MING...

hey bro..when we say we will be there for each other..
i believe we did..
and no matter what

" Bros For now..
Means Bros forever already"

U got problem i help u settle..
i got girls..we see together..( hahas)

then a bro like u i will nv forget..
Cause i believe we cherish this "BROTHERship"
Instead of friendship..
I know 20 0f sep is ur birthday..
so i prank call u to wish u..
adn all i wish is u happy lahx..
Subway has been a favourite in my food list ever since i meet u..
Not to forget Soon quey too...
Hope u take care and see u when sch reopens..
-Yi ming & er Chi-

i believe by tmr i will come out with a new song..
to show hw i feel towards this 17 Bd..
and my new class..
(Cross finger) i hope tat we can bond really well..
tats all peeps..
Nitex..

Birthday..

2007-09-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

Wake me up when september ends...

2007-09-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

Yo guys...Long time no update le..
hmm..seems like i had gotten over the things tat i shld..
Yup..so what have i been doing?
erm..Working..Exercising..And outing with my frens..
haha..Kinda of boring ritex..
But we always look forward to holidays..
When it arrived then we would be too bored..becoz we dun know hw to spend it..
Unless we are a very good planner..
So..I livw my life like this..
erm..also..kinda of missed judo..
I'm starting to train in other clubs and to see the world..
What kind of fighters are there in the world..
Hmm..Okie..My guitar..
Oh..tats ritex!!!!!
I have alot to catch up..
Argh.. (T.T)
Shit i forgot abt it..haix~

Msg section:

Vimal: Hey thks for the compliment..Erm...I jus wanna say tat the one written was not a good one..I only want to vent out wat is in my mind..So Nothing to be great abt..but still thks anyway..

Xiong: Hey..Nw working lahx..Like u everyday so free..Slack at hm..haha..Jus Joking..Will tell u when i am free can?sry arhx..Bro..Hope u take care too..

Tanya: U may or maynot see this...But i atill wanna say.. "All the best for exams..."

yahx..erm..i am so tired already..need to catch more sleep..
Bye peeps..and ppl who reads my blog..take care..
* September is a great month to be remembered...*

THe 60th Post...

2007-09-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

Erm..Still it is a long time i nv update le...
Haix~ Everything i update...
80% would be unfavourable things that had happened de..
29 of september...
It was a significant date as it was her birthday day...
I spend 3 long nitex..
Came back after work everyday...
ANd Design a card for her...
though losing my own voice...
But i hope tat she would be surprise...
And i also went to bought some chocolate for her...
hope that her stress can be sweeten by the chocolates...
But when on her actual day of her birthday...
I tried ways to give her the present...
all i get was "see first..see first and see first..."
Haix~ haix~ haix~
Till nw 03 september... i am still holding her presents...
i dun know whether to give her or not...
it is just an feeling in me that cant be describe...
i feel like totally giving up already...
I just feel like i am so useless already...
I am just too tired of all these already...
Everytime i take a breathe...
It was as if something heavy was against it...

true enough....the past was already really hurting...
I dun wish my present to be as hurtful too...
so maybe i dont wish to start anything...
I feared and i am tired of all these...erm..
shall i call it SHIT? or NONSENSE??
Well what ever it is...
i really want to say tat she didnt even spare a thought for me...
How i feel or how had i think for her...Well what ever man...
She dont even appericate it... Haix~ ( =_=)

Talking abt teacher's day...
i am happy tat i can see all my frenx..maybe not all...
But also i rremembered all the hurtful past...
I control myself not to show too much...
like tat it would not be fair to frenx around me...
So i kept it inside me...

hmm...i have been thinking actually...
what the hack do i actually want...
I found the answer partically...

i feel like composing a song nw...

Every moments of each day...
There would be times you hang around my mind
Every day towards your birthday...
There would be times i'm awake...
Late at night... in my eyes...
The present was far from done..
I feel like sleeping..
But i know i cant..

I would always like to hear it ring
beCause whenever your message rings
and i feel like king...
but I always Hope that you could care for me..
And all my hopes were not for long...
because my hopes were bubbles...
it burst in a blink...
Sadness and dissapoint are in the air..
It takes up my oxygen..
and i just cant breathe..

[RAP]
When i am crying inside..
Do you really can hear me?
I guess you are not becox you don't care..
When i needed someone here
were you there?
I guess you are not because you don't care..
For now i am just tired of all these shit...
Doing all for you i felt so just stupid..
becox in the mind of yours i don't even have a seat..
maybe i am long dumped by you in a rubbish bin...
I am writing all these becox i feel like this...
I'm sorry if i hurt your feeling...
And i don't mean it...
Becox this is exactly how i felt..
you have to believe me..
if you are reading all these...
Oh~baby...i'm Really sry..

-The End-

I am just letting out how i felt..
but if i hurt her...then sry...
i dont know what have you been thinking...
But if i am wrong pls tell me...
And i hope that you are not angry with me upon reading this...
a piece of my mine to you is the best i can do...
Night PeePs..zzzzzzzzzz..

So long already..

2007-08-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl...
Long time nv update le..
Erm..No great changes in life..
still the emo me lack of confidence..But sometime abit haywire..
yahx..MAC was screwed so is my life..
But luckily i repaired it..
HAix..I was a jinx..cause my manager PSP to got lost..
But he still accompany me to repair my MAC..
So now all my notes gone..Cause i reinstall everythin in order to save my MAC..
Anyone kind enough to spare me notes???
I would definitely appericate it very much..

yahx..MAC is repaired..but my life is still screwed...
It is still going to be a long way..
Wat if the outcome is not what i expected...
Then history is gonna repeat itself again...
Sigh...Now working almost all day..
trying not to be so depressed..
I am really trying le..
try to make an effort to ask abt her...
But cold shoulder is all i get..
I am getting fears all over my mind...

Msg section

Ming: Hey i hope u r okie too..meet uo for subway some day..

Keenan: The party i think i cant go..But to meet up for guitar session..U can arrange??I will tyr to make it..

AMalia: haha..I miss u too..David WAS still once our classmate..So we must wish him all the best after all..

" 適應“

沒想過愛情會下落不名..
寂漠都不忍心..
故事的結局走不出背影..
我只能靜靜听..
風吹起那些成經..
躦過身我用眼淚怜聽..
心該怎麼去適應..
那些沒你的安靜..
我也在小心的收起所有回憶..
卻總是忍不住不斷的翻起..
愛開始了該怎麼去喊停??

.....SECRET.....

2007-08-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

Well..today was rather a slack day..
I slept late last nites..maybe use to it le..
and then caused me to woke up late..
THen got up to do some luandary for mom..
ThOught tat there is no breakfast..
haha..but mom already bought my favourite.." CHAO MIAN "
yahx..also i went to watch my idol JAY CHOU newest production..
" 不能說的秘密.... "

It was indeed a nice movie..
i was impressed by the complication of plot..
And the beautiful story that it can never happen in real life..
How i long for this kind of relationship..
Well of course can remove the piano part..
haha..yahx..and also while watching i was thinking of this person..
It came to my mind..
Is it becox i misses her too much?Or is it i jus happen to think of her everyday..
If she is reading this i guess she would know..We are all busy with own stuffs..
Espically her O levels..
But i will always silently be here for her..
I wonder if i even matter to her in the first place..And yahx..
Sry for the side track..
So the review is..The movie was great..Go watch if u have not..
I bet u would want to watch it second time or even more..

MSG section:

Xiong: Our heart are linked...No need to link u on you the blog de.haha..U take care orhx...will link u soon..

To Bros: Hey..u guys r great man..Great time with u guys..Meet up soon yahx..

OKie..I going to WorK On something big nw..
Dun know if she will like it..But still i want to do it sincerely..
Bye PeepS..

yes!!!

2007-08-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

today is fimally offical my final last day as i am completed with my last project..
It was such a relieve..Although i handed in at 12.01..and the deadline was suppose to be 12pm sharp..
OopS..I hope the lecturer TAH CHIN BOO.. can open one eye and close one eye..haha..
And yeah...Seriously goona miss my classmates man..they are a bunch of great peers..
Not trying to show off hw gd they are but just wanna let the whole know..I have all the best peers in my class..
Including david..I believe i shld not exclude david cause he gavs us wonderful memories too..But not mentioning the trouble he cause lahx..So lets wish him all the best for the next semester sncerely.. =)

ANd also OUr (ting Ting and me) project is finally done..
first time cooperate and we can communicate..NOt bad huh..haha..okie..

Msg section:

MinGest: Hey bro..Sry for the very late reply..I can guarantee tat u r one of my BEST BR0 in NP too..
Thks for always beening so encouraging..Ur comments i wll take it seriously everything.So Nxt time have problem dun forget
there will be a listening ear 24/7 for u Worx (^_^)

Adee: Yo Yo..haha..i saw ur comment..I enjoy bonding too..haha..i guess our class bond can be further strengthen too =)

Ting: I want to say this good thing again..It was a fablous time working with such a efficient partner like you..And dun worry abt the comment tat u said about me tat time..Becox i needed really some self reflection..so i guess i was abit lazy..i sld thank u instead..haha..Dun worry abt it man..=) Smilex with a twist!! haha.. Ur trademark!!

YenSing GoD Sis: haha..yahx..when free give me a call lohx..i nw having holiday..so i guess i shall see u soon ritex..
okie..take care Lohx..God sis...

Yahx..os i guess after a semester of sleepless nitex..I guess i must be wanting to let my body revejunate..So i guess i must sleep nw..
Bye Peeps..Sleep well yahx...2 months of holiday is definitely a long one.. Take care.. =)

DeStress..

2007-08-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

i am so stress nw..
I am going for my last test..
Erm..Actually it is practical..
woAh..Has not always being good at practicak..
But i am at least prepared..
(^-^) This is a smile of confident !!
hehe.But still stress.. (-_- )
okie..Moving myself off from tat..
The semester is coming to an end...and maybe i am gonna miss my classmates..
haha..my classmates who is reading this.. "THIS IS TRUE.."
haha..NO matter wat i can see class spirit anyway..
One example is that we are teahing each other on the practical..Tat is so awesome..
I jus enjoy this kind of feeling..Yup (^_^)
Yahx..it is one more minute to 10.30..

So got to listen to song and relax..
Btw..I am nt listening to my own song library..
haha..is tat a crime??
I think it is nt..hehe..
yahx..also this few days mugging on gameboy..
Well i do tat becox i do nt owe an gameboy when i was young..
so i am jus enjoying the late child hood Fun..haha..
it alritex anyway...It is nt childish but jus a kind of entertaminent.. (^_ ^)
hehe..OKie..Really gtg Nw..Bye..PeePs..

Gd Luck to Myself on the Test !!! ((^_^)) V ...

...hmm..

2007-08-14T05:28:00.000+08:00

yahx..I decided again..
I should stand up and face my problem again..
I am Yichee..And i wont be defeated easiily...
hehe..Yes i am back alritex..
At least feeling better..Yahx..erm.Thks FOr PPl who care yahx..

Msg Section:

Xiong: Thks for tat...I think of it??Well..is it come itself de..haha...U aLso Stop looking at girls..
If Not one day i will dig out ur eye balls..

Yvonne: haha..I am alritex..If nt hw can i be ur dIrector??okie..Happy Holiday.. =)

Alvin: stop Visiting mY blog lahx..Kanasai..Ten Nv Tag..Okie..Bye..Take care.. =)

Yahx..Nw jus finished my exam le..so Sian YEt scared..
Haix..YAhx..Wat ever it is..Tmr is still yet to come..Why not face it...
OKie..PeepS..Bye..

The end Is Coming So0n..

2007-08-09T03:14:00.000+08:00

hehe..yehx..so happy i can use the fifiteen minutes to blog...
After that i need to study already..
Yahx..These few days kept helping my mom..
Becox My dad Caught the China Worker red-handed..
She was taking the money when my dad happen to pass by..
How unluckily is she..But It is also her fault...
Well..She is a best frenz of my mom...
Hw can my mom trust a frenx to do tat..
But it is still the truth..
So i guess i have to work extra harder..
yahxx...I can do it!!! (=_=") haha..SO faked.

Yahx..Now days assigment are coming as if they are running marathon..
and the deadlines is like so near already..
But i hope everything will be fine soon..
Cause i am working real hard to make sure i achieve something..
haha..Actually it is good result lahx..
I dun wanna compete with my classmates..
But Jus compete with myself..
BEcox The greatest enemy is ur ownself..
haha...Kinda of "CHEMOLOGY" yahx..
It is okie anyway..

OKie..Time for MessaGE section..

TIngx : Hello..Dun anyway Hw say can?? U got Copyright anot?? huh huh huh??? haha..
Anyway.. HAPPY WORKING in audio TEch Yahx..We can rocks Like no one Do.. (I tink so..)

MIng : Hello..U arhx..IF u reading this..tmr remember to meet for art & dsgn..Pls do come..I have things for u to do..

david : erm..Pls come to sch to avoid any inconvience..and also Mr EMO. wants to see u!!

Zhao Xiong: Hey..Find one day in Holiday..Bring Our God sis and we go out together can?? I missed the day when "tauning" at ur hse..haha..

Keenan and MAdhan: HOHOHOHOHO.. Our show was a great ONe..accept...U knOw Wat i am talking abt..hhaaha..Nxt time must check the mike B4 check out..

Fatimah: Dun feel bad for not coming tat day..I understand..Jus take care of urself eill do.. =)

Tanya : I do miss U..I really do..But hw do i tell U?? (=.=)

Okie..Peeps..tats all for tonitex..
haha..i guess some of u all dun sleep early too..
espically MING..i bet he will be reading this..

OkIE..Bye Bye and Gd NiteX..

i Jus missed u..can u give me jus this one of the chance in life? "

today..Jus today..

2007-08-04T05:05:00.000+08:00

ehm ehm..Just finish my social psychology presentation today..
Well, always have stage fright since i was young..
And also..I had been trying hard..
Just to hope one day i can used to it..
haha..okie at least i am still quite contended with myself..
But still got lots of room for improvement ..

OKie..Nw is on 2 in the afternoon..
hmm..doing editing again..
and later go play basketball at ChuA Chu Kang..
haha..since a long time since i touch basketball..
Hope tat i can get back the "feel" ..

And also today at peer evaluation..
I was so tied down..Dun know wat grade to give david..
cause i scared to hurt him as a class mates..
but o choice either..i had given him enough chances already..
Yet he still dun know how to repent..
haix~What to do?

To David: " Hey..we Had done our part...What about you??"

Erm..Nw GTG..Will update again..
Take care PpL..

2nd 0f august..

2007-08-03T14:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..today is a very stressed day..
i Jus finished editing my NVP 3..
hehe..came up with lots of ideas to save our project..
and yahx..Keenan (on the pic above) thks alot yahx..
haha..u had been a great editing partner..
And also MAdhan..Sry i dint take pics with u..so cant post..
But anyway..U r a great editor too!!Nice working with u..
Many might think i had finish my editing le..
but to all of ur surprise..we had not.. (=.=")
okie..haha..Actually We r left with last few things only..

Also today audio tech..
i finally figure hw to patch correctly lo..
haha..okie thumbs up for myself..hehe...lame..

also nw days feel like a superhero..
only sleep abt 4 hrs per day sia..
haha..but untill ytd..i get to sleep 6 hrs..
"Orhx Bac Cak" (eyebags) already.. look like this >>>> 0_0

Also this morning at LRT..
saw something unexpected today..
Twice in a week somemore..Hw coincidence is tat..
Well tat is hw fate works..Isn't it?
Well..Okie..

Erm..i need to go get ready for my tmr SOCIAL PSYCOLOGICAL assest tutorial 2
Cant let my brudder ZID down..Must work it hard..No matter what..
Okie..Take care everyone..

" TO THINK IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE

MIGHT HELP U KICK AWAY PROBLEM IN UR LIFE..

TO SEE IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE

MIGHT HELP YOU SEE MIRACLE IN LIFE..

TO FEEL IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE

SOMETIME IT JUST TOUCHES ONE HEART.."

=.="

2007-08-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

hmm,i dun know wat to write here..
dun know what to mention here..
I just feel very down..
Even my bros are feeling down..
Three of my bros kena sad case..
I can only verbally help them..
i experience it myself..
i can recognize all of their pain..
i had it once..
Guys...stay strong..
hmm..So long haven been a counsel ppl already...
I cant even get a hold on myself yet i am counselling ppl.
What an idiot.. (=.= )

Msg section:

to MIng and jerremy : it is just a psrt of life dude..get over it as soon as possible..it shld be fine soon..

to si han : Hey bro arhx..Dun sad le lahx..Take time to heal ur heart bahx..Girls are somehow same de lahx..

to Petrina : Gd luck to you and benjamin.. =) And take gd care of urself..

when i want myself to feel gd..
bad things always happen..
Is the haven against me??
What had i done wrong?
Arhx!!! i am so frustrated..
Anyway..i want to be alone nw..

" i can nv see the touched words in the book
because it nv exist..

I can no longer see ur trace..
Becox it was washed away..

i can no longer feel ur heart..
Becox u seems so far away..

Live well and be happy with who u had found..
Becox i am sure that i am glad for u.."

I am in a corner nw..
okie..gtg and think adt hw things shld work nw..
Wiil update again..

hmm..erm..hmm..

2007-07-31T04:53:00.000+08:00

Ehem ehem..
haha..wanna congrgulate my si han bro on finding his the other one..
To si han: "I have confidence in you..Do cherish her yahx.."

yahx..Nw got time then blog bahx..
Hmm timetable for this month is HELL PACKED..
note tat it is "HELL-PACKED !!"
Haha..okie..Jus finish my test today..
Got two more to go..
Okie..Jia You Jia You!!
Erm..cheering for myself..haha..
Yahx..Must stay strong..
Nw feeling weird because i carrying the flu germs with me..
muahahax..Dun come near me..hehe..Yahx..

Today was random..
Feeling positive today ONLY..
Yahx..got limited time only..haha..
yahx..I am thinking a name for my mac..
erm..can any one suggest any??
haha..Tag in my blog yahx..

Okie..NW getting ready to go for audio tech..
erm..another two test from this subject..

(Msg section)
To my class: Let rock for two more week..and we can rest le..
Okie yahx..

To Keenan: It gd tat u had made up ur choice..sometime in life u had to learn to be selfish..
To fight for wat u want..But also to spare a thought for others at the same time..

To david: Hey..Why are u nt replying calls again??Why do u want to rot when everyone is giving u a new chance?
I am rather speechless man..Dude..Be a man of ur word can?

Okie..Nw enjoying the breeze blowing onto my face..
Hmm, felt lighter than before nw..
Learn to let go..it will be fine eventually..
I walked in the rain the day before..
I was rather happy by the accompany of the rain droplets.
It jus shower on my face..ArhG..
I unknowlingly raised my hands..
and turned as i walked..
This is a feeling i would nv forget..

haha..yup..maybe tats the reason why i am more positive today.. =0

all i wanted is someone simple..
really simple..
tats my wish for today..
haha..read between the lines and the pp who r close to me enogh shld understand..

Okie..Quote of the day
" I want to be simple and plain happiness..=)"

The 47th post..

2007-07-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

Hi guys..Long time never update already..
I was rather busy or you guys can say i am keeping myself busy..
Just to keep myself from thinking too much..
Becox the more you dream about impossible things..
When it don't happen, the more it is gonna hurt..
And yahx..although once my bro ZHAO XIONG said:
" when u break up impossible..
iT sounds like..
I'M POSSIBLE.."
Thanks anyway..And it's gd for u to forget ur past..
But tat certaninly does not apply to everything..
It was a mistake since the start..
I had made her see how i felt..
like everything matters to me..
And please dun feel bad..
It is okie if u hurt me..
Because i love u back as who u r..
And i accept u as who u r..

You may be wondering why i post tat pic up there..
Can you guys infer from the picture how i actually feel now? (=.=)
It being a long long journey and i am going to end this..
It is either i burn the diary or i keep it with me and regard it as a part of myself..
I am rather confused..
The past is meant to be fade on its own..
But not purposely pushing out of my mind..
becox tat definitely wont work..
Maybe i was ur problem all this while..
You can denied and i can act dumb..
i want to stop ur pain but i cant even stop mine..
But i had tried my best..Hope u can understand..
You can be laughing and smile around..
but is tat really the real you?
I can say i am controlling emotions..
and i hate tat..
for now lets walk one step at a time..
I am sure we can get out of this..

Now for something else..
I was in S&W..AND NO CATS..
What a day..{^_^}
yahx..and i thought i was up for editing..
But i was there for nothing..{~_~'"}
and yup..now have time so blog first lohx..

To Ming: Hey, when is the next time we go for subway?? hehe =)

To madham and keenan: Hey,we r going to rock and roll in editing!!

To fat: Thks for collecting my charger, if nt i have to spend 250 to buy one..Thks alot..

To Tingx : Hey..u seems to have problems..Take care alriex?? And rest more..{-_-}zzz

To david: everyone is giving you a chance..it really the time for you to change nw..
Dun waste it brother!!

To Myself: U BLODDY IDIOT..learn to let go..learn to get up from falls lahx..so Weak sia..
U call urself a man??!!??!

and i think i should stop here now..I need to get started with work..
okie..i feel a surge of energy in me..
ha..Jus ran 5 km in the morning and did some weight training..
Okie ppl..take care and link me if u had not..
T1A2!!!.. OKie..we rock as a class..
give me one T1A2 clap..
" WE ARE THE BEST..POWER!!!"
Okie and bye.. {o_O} V

~bad dAy~

2007-07-21T00:23:00.003+08:00

first and foremost..i am just shut off today..
Jus dun wanna talk much and felt abit EMO..
Did shooting today at tingx hse..
Her hse so nice sia..
hmm, mytbe she is a girl so she keeps the room clean..

Okie..i also felt like a loser and useless today..
i was the boom mike operator..
But i cant even make sure tat the mike was working..
Whereas everyone was doing their job well..
i felt like useless when others r so busy and then they need to come and help me..
and they r already frustrated yet u still go and bother ppl..
so i guess ppl who can imagine or was once in my shoe..
can understand hw i feel or maybe not..Well..{=.=}"'
And at least i have the perserverance to fixed the problem..
at first i thought i fixwd it..
then it went against me again..
Then in the end i fixed it..
wat a relief..

Basically..
it is jus keep everything in my heart..
and keep my silent for the whole day..

Nw it something concern to ppl who knows wat is happening..

"I am confused..
i got lost..
the direction you gave me was the cause..
guide me in wrong thoughts and left a door..
thought that u was there and i was the last of all..
but truth lies at the other side of the opened door..
i am not the one i am not..
i feel tat it actually hurt alot..
And i stood at the door with a lock..
because the problems between us may has been unlocked..
hope tat the person u mention was not me..
And wish tat i can be happy as your frenx for the last of all.."

i wrote this because i was confused...
i am really lost..
i guess i am stupid..
I am jus making a guess tat this is true..
But it is the facts tat are appointing me to do so..
haix~ {=_=}'"
okie gonna work on my soc psy and tmr still got shooting..
Work hard ppl..PERSERVANCE..
cant smilex today..sry.. {=_=}***< pardon me..>