THe 60th Post...
Monday, September 3, 2007 @ 5:30 PM
Erm..Still it is a long time i nv update le...
Haix~ Everything i update...
80% would be unfavourable things that had happened de..
29 of september...
It was a significant date as it was her birthday day...
I spend 3 long nitex..
Came back after work everyday...
ANd Design a card for her...
though losing my own voice...
But i hope tat she would be surprise...
And i also went to bought some chocolate for her...
hope that her stress can be sweeten by the chocolates...
But when on her actual day of her birthday...
I tried ways to give her the present...
all i get was "see first..see first and see first..."
Haix~ haix~ haix~
Till nw 03 september... i am still holding her presents...
i dun know whether to give her or not...
it is just an feeling in me that cant be describe...
i feel like totally giving up already...
I just feel like i am so useless already...
I am just too tired of all these already...
Everytime i take a breathe...
It was as if something heavy was against it...
true enough....the past was already really hurting...
I dun wish my present to be as hurtful too...
so maybe i dont wish to start anything...
I feared and i am tired of all these...erm..
shall i call it SHIT? or NONSENSE??
Well what ever it is...
i really want to say tat she didnt even spare a thought for me...
How i feel or how had i think for her...Well what ever man...
She dont even appericate it... Haix~ ( =_=)
Talking abt teacher's day...
i am happy tat i can see all my frenx..maybe not all...
But also i rremembered all the hurtful past...
I control myself not to show too much...
like tat it would not be fair to frenx around me...
So i kept it inside me...
hmm...i have been thinking actually...
what the hack do i actually want...
I found the answer partically...
i feel like composing a song nw...
Every moments of each day...
There would be times you hang around my mind
Every day towards your birthday...
There would be times i'm awake...
Late at night... in my eyes...
The present was far from done..
I feel like sleeping..
But i know i cant..
I would always like to hear it ring
beCause whenever your message rings
and i feel like king...
but I always Hope that you could care for me..
And all my hopes were not for long...
because my hopes were bubbles...
it burst in a blink...
Sadness and dissapoint are in the air..
It takes up my oxygen..
and i just cant breathe..
[RAP]
When i am crying inside..
Do you really can hear me?
I guess you are not becox you don't care..
When i needed someone here
were you there?
I guess you are not because you don't care..
For now i am just tired of all these shit...
Doing all for you i felt so just stupid..
becox in the mind of yours i don't even have a seat..
maybe i am long dumped by you in a rubbish bin...
I am writing all these becox i feel like this...
I'm sorry if i hurt your feeling...
And i don't mean it...
Becox this is exactly how i felt..
you have to believe me..
if you are reading all these...
Oh~baby...i'm Really sry..
-The End-
I am just letting out how i felt..
but if i hurt her...then sry...
i dont know what have you been thinking...
But if i am wrong pls tell me...
And i hope that you are not angry with me upon reading this...
a piece of my mine to you is the best i can do...
Night PeePs..zzzzzzzzzz..
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
