Helpless
Monday, October 19, 2009 @ 1:15 AM
My brother came up with a brilliant idea of having a tatoo. Great, now how am I going to reply him. Firstly he still have 2 years in secondary and he told me that he is gonna paste a plaster
over his hand to bluff his teacher for that period. Secondly, he knows that it is against the rules why does he still want to cross over the line and push himself in a dangerous position? Thirdly, once the ink is dry it will become part of him. Have he ever thought about the consequences of having it? In terms of socially and stuff. Lastly I really want to ask him, did he ever spare a thought about Mom. Does he ever learn? Haven't we gave him enough freedom? Does he ever feel contended about his life? Just what else can i do for him?
Moving on...Lady S has someone I trust to watch over her. I am truly bless about it. Though I think she might not even notice my presence. But when school starts, I hope that she remembers me..A person who is willing to share her joy and sadness with her when ever she feels lonely. Yah man..What else more can is say..
Alright tmr will be the opening of sch. So i shall rest early. Mind and Body are equally tired.
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
For a change
Friday, October 16, 2009 @ 3:19 AM
I changed a new blogskin. I hope that it helps to brightens up my mood too :)
Hmm, i guess I need some rest now. Tomorrow will be a busy day ! :D
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Down
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 @ 8:44 PM
Today is 14 of Oct 2009. My mood is not getting any better. One matter after another. I began to question myself, am i a good brother? Am i fit to his brother? Since young, i know that i did not treat my younger brother good enough. Maybe i was young, I did not know the importance of family relationships. But i did try my best to give what i can to my younger brother as we grow older. Once again, my heart is having that torturous feeling. It is really unbearable.
when i know he is going back to what he used to be. I am feeling all worried. Just what can i do to help him? I am helpless. It is like i am crying from inside when he just can't hear it, just shouting out to him, 'please don't turn back, I will be here..' I just keep praying for him, hope that he will know that there is still people caring for him.
As for her, I shall name her as Lady S.
For all the words that i want to tell her, for the songs that i want to sing to her.
I am not sure when is the right time. Or maybe it is not gonna happen at all.
This feeling suck as usual too. Just what else can i do for you..
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
