Jus a post
Friday, December 21, 2007 @ 9:36 PM
i am missing for a very long time..
i lost the feel to blog already...
I also dun know either...This few weeks i am just not feeling right...
Everything is so weird...all i wish is to run and to be away...
Maybe everything is too much again...
Also i felt that my blog is dead...
i wanted so much...but what i can do is so little...
How far am i exactly from my dream? No one knows...Not even me...
i am jsut dreaming everything and everyday...
hoping that i can be the light on the stage playing piano...
But i have no money for lesson...Lets not mention a piano...
Why?? Why do you have to gamble away the money and my dreams?
You are already 55 and you want to gamble so much?
You made mom cried...brother dislike you...
And you think this for no reasons?
I thought you would do some self- reflection...
You didnt !! You told me : "Ah Chee, I can rather chooose not to eat because i want to gamble..."
And you..the bread-winner of the family...
You work but you cant even provide urself a proper meal for urself? You expext me to respect u ike this?
How? can u teach me? Just because u are my father?
Do you really want me to throw away my social life and just made my poly life only study and work?
wat am i gonna do?
Christmas is on its way...
Other people can spend their christmas happily..
i always cannot do it...Shit always happen before this day..
It can be months ago, weeks ago, days ago or even a year ago...
Well....no point...totally no point...i already become a half saddist...half loner...
I dun want it either...
My Words...
A voice always wanting to sing
he can't..he dare not...
A heart wanting to touch piano
he know..he cant afford...
A number of songs that he wrote
he understand...Crap is the word for all..
A hopeless person waitng for miracle
he prays...hopelessness is all he got...
A tired mind over loading with thoughts
he tries...Throwing the thoughts out of his mind..
A sincere man waiting for Miss Right
he waits...Till the day he stands at ending point...
~The End~
Merrry Christmas in advance to Everyone out there i know...
Dun be affected by my post...i tends to pour my emotions here...
(oops maybe u guys are not even reading...haha ~ it is okie..i am long-winded)
erm..so yup..Bye peeps...
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
