Try
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 @ 12:44 PM
After so long, I have come back to this place. A place where all sadness will continue to roam. I woke up to ask myself this morning, what do I want with my life? This is such a simple question yet I have no answer to it. Of course I don't like to waste my time but what can I do when I don't even know how to start with.
Failure is part and parcel of life. When ever it comes to relationship stuff, I tend to fail badly. I begin to question myself, am I the one who is at fault? I heard from the song the one who cares most usually won't get the answer out of it. Why is it that when I am ready to give it will always be a failure ending. One day maybe I will give up everything even my own hope in myself. Just hope that all my positive thoughts will stay as long as possible.
" If I walk would you run, if i stop YOU come..
If I say you are the one, would YOU believe me? "
It is not easy to love like this..
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Before the sun meets the horizon
Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 10:05 PM
All these while, I have been catching up with family and friends that I haven't seen in quite a while. The feeling catching up is great and knowing that some are not really doing to well actually affects me because I would wonder what can I do to make their life better. I would look in silence and feel really bad inside for not taking out more time for them. But I did what I can, I have my limit too. But nevertheless, lets change for the better.
To an old friend of mine, I know that I would be leaving for a while and I told you to take great care. But I meant it when I said it and that would let my mind set in peace. Whether is it a mistake, that would not matter anymore. I believe what matter to us is we live our life without forgetting the presence of each other on this island. One day we might meet again and lets sit down in a cafe near a corner and talk about our life again. Promise me you will work hard and live well.. :)
Singing has been with me for a while, and I ask myself, why do I sing? Why do you sing ? I decided that my reason is simple. I want to sing for a very last time before I go in and I would sing with every bit that I have.
Preparation for graduation is almost done but army stuff is still undone. Damn man~ Hmm okie gotta do it soon soon SOON. Whoo, gotta change bed sheet.. Take Care Everyone :)
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
To my younger brother.
Monday, April 12, 2010 @ 1:21 PM
This entry will be solely to my younger brother.
Yi Sheng,
I understand at times we can't bear to give in to each other and we often like to bicker. Since young we always love to fight and quarrel over tiny mini stuffs but who can be like us? After each quarrel we still can sit down watch TV, eat together, play games and watch youtube video together. But one thing that will never change is we love our pride, don't we? But as your big brother, I learn to give in and apologize. I am glad to see you change for the better but your bad temper really agitates me at times. That explains why I spoke to you that saturday morning. I might sound a bit harsh about your scholarship and stuff but if I don't say would understand the importance of it? or even realise it is too late? You are clever and smart, we all know that. So why do you want to waste your chances when you can make use of the benefits that you can enjoy? Our family is not that well off to being with and you know that mom is also having a hard time supporting us. So brother, come to think of it, can we make mom's burden lighter?
You might think that I am trying to ignite a fight again but think again brother. Don't we share the same goal somehow? it is in which to make our mother feel more happy and more fortunate to have us as her son, right ? So why are we keeping silent like this? Are we enemies ? I already said sorry seems to be the hardest word to say and I have said it to you. So isn't it time that you should have said something or at least greet me when you see me ? I have said my piece. Whether will you read this post, I shall let fate decides. But if you really do, just want to let you know if anything happens in your life, I will be behind there to help you. I promise.
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Adaptation & Changes in life
@ 10:00 AM
Today while I was editing in my suite, I overheard one of the colleague is going off. I actually respect and look up to him as my role model. During my internship days, without him around things would have been hetic for me. I tried to ask him the reasons for leaving the company and he answer me this way.
Ask myself ...
(1) Do you need this job ?
(2) Can you get another job ?
(3) Are you happy with this job ?
Basically, he told me that he answered these three question and then he derived from a answer. This is certainly a changing point in his life and I am sure that he knows what he is doing. There is this saying, the start of this departure is to get ready for the next meet up. But on the editing work wise, it feels that I am alone and it seems that I can't adapt to that feeling. Last time in school got mates to see and help but now is all about being independent now.
I guess my next stage of life would be Army life. Some said it to be good. But the thing that I look forward to is having them transform my "World United" stomach into 8 pack dark chocolate. Heh. Okie maybe it is just my fat dream. Okie. It seems like the clock struck 6 and I already hear the sound of basketball hauling me ! Hehe, feels like today gonna have a few hard knock rebounds and body contacts.
Alrighty people, please stay cool and healthy as we all know about the weather recently and exercise more !
okie Ciaos.
YiChee™
Decisions are often made, whether is it big or small ones. I learnt that decisions that are made at the very moment are mostly right, because we won't want to choose something wrong and ruin ourselves, right ?
Recently, I think I need to further push myself from not spending too much. I really need to save up, SAVE UP ! Heh, a lot of dreams to be fulfilled in my life. Some might sound impossible. But as long as I am alive one day here, I will try to make my dream come true.
Labels: Adaptation
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Me.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 @ 6:23 PM
It is my third day at work. But to be honest, it felt different this time. I felt that I was having a more bigger responsibility. One of my mentor in this company has left and I am sitting on his seat and it felt really different. And he left behind his IPOD classic behind and I got it from him. He fulfil my dream of getting a IPOD. I am grateful to him. But I just hope that my two month here will make my learn more. Throwing myself out into the industry, I had a lot of worries and uncertainties that is going through my mind. But I am a person who thinks a lot, besides if you don't make your first move and start doing who knows what will happen ?
With no doubt I can say I love singing a lot. Whenever I have the chance to listen to songs that I like, I will pay extra attention to it, hoping one day I will have the chance to perform to my friends and family. And I am glad inside because each time I know that I improve, I will push myself to the next stage but I also didn't want to overdo it as well. No matter what it is, I know I won't give up so easily on where my passion burns on as well.
Acting. I didn't realise I would have such interest for acting as well. But it was fun acting in my own final project. After seeing the outcome, I feel that I had no regrets or maybe I just regrets that the time was to do this project wasn't long enough.
Hmm, one thing to mention but not to hurt anyone. I don't like when people mention about my grey hair. I know I have to live with it and I somehow don't have a choice at all. I tried to change whatever that I think could lead to my grey hairs. One thing that calms me down a bit is ,yes it does help afterall. I mean I may sound vain here but think of it this way if someone keep reminding you of your imperfection when you know clearly better than anyone. Arh fuck it lah. Sorry if i offended anyone but I just need a place to throw it out.
Alright, enough whining. I am going home now ! :D Bye peeps !
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
心。结
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 @ 1:05 AM
我今天将用华语来述说我的一些内心的感受和想法。
也许有很多人会觉得我会想地很多但是不想的话问题就会自然而然的解决？
久了想太多这个毛病就变成了我的坏习惯。这导致我把很多事情都看不开也放不下。
或许我觉得这会让我觉得比较好因为我是一个很有责任的人。
常常我会觉得成绩不是一切，但我也是人，难免也回觉得失望。
辛苦到这样，为的是什麼？也不过是想在最后打出一章漂亮的成绩单，让父母和自己有个交代。
不过往往这世界是不公平的，老师往往也会有自己欣赏的一些学生。
我时不时也会被”爱“这个字耍的不知所错。不是来一个时间不对就是年纪太小。我不知道我该做什麼了。
也许我要面对的还有很多，如果你能知道，我想对你说 “不是你不好，可能是你年纪太小， 或者是我还不够好。
我累了。不想再多说。有时后说了也等于白说。
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Free Time. Empty Space. Zone Out.
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 4:21 AM
I think for these 3 years, my sleeping clock has been screwed badly. I need to get it right. Hmm, at this time where people are sleeping I am blogging. Ohh, Chalet Chalet Chalet, next week need to go chalet ! Whooo! Regarded as the unofficial officially graduation night for FSV. Now how does that sound? hehehe.. The idea of food is making me really hungry ! Hehe, Okie *(PEH YI CHEE STAY CALM)
Next post I will be uploading the photos for 茶叶蛋. I re-edited myself and touched up on it. Hmm, I just got a random feeling. Do a project solely on AE..I will take it as a challenge to myself. lol.
It is a feeling that I felt recently. Mixed feeling actually. Haha, I don't even know if I should be laughing but yeah. Hmm, I need more time to this. Damn. At the same time I feel lost too. Damn man. This phase suck.
Alright, gotta try the second attempt to sleep.
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
The end welcomes the new beginning
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 6:58 PM
Is it coming all to an end ? All of a sudden, my pace of life has been slow down and it felt weird. I guess I should use this time to slowly get my body back to normal state. hmm, maybe first step for me is to sleep at normal time, 11.30pm. I believe I can starting from today. Next phase of my life would be army days. I would say that I am not looking forward to it but then I somehow have to get this over and done with. Ehh~ (=.=) I need to get a job soon. I wanna get my IPOD touch. Hmm, being dreaming about it since last year. But then, it just seems so hard to get there. Debts here and there and also, I will be grateful if people will learn to be appreciative of kind actions. Yeah here is a picture of it, hmm I think the 32 GB one sounds worth it ! hehe *(You can engrave what you want, and FREE shipping !)
To fullfil this dream, I had to work. And I recently found myself a job. But still I need to go through a second interview. Hee, Good Luck to me yo !
Okie, this song I found it very nice. I want to delicate this song to my Masscom friends, FSV friends,Sun Leopard Ah bangs and my Brothers of FSV. Erm, this song is by Alicia Keys - "If I ain't got you" .
"If I didn't have you guys for these three years, it will be nothing at all."
Lyrics: Augello-Cook, Alicia
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live just for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
defines what is within
And I've been there before and that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want Diamond ring
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you baby
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozens roses
And thats the only way you prove to love him
Hand me the world one a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share
with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want Diamond ring
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you you you you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want Diamond ring
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you yeah
If I ain't got you with me baby
Said nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
Alright, This friday will be the screening of "CHA YE DAN" and other AFP 2 projects ! Looking forward to it !
For now, take care peeps ! Weather has been a bitch but then we have to stay strong. :D
YiChee™
" No one is responsible for your own health, accept yourself..."
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
GG. SCREWED.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 12:24 AM
I thought I could have finished it but I can't. I was hoping for even a glimpse of hope to postpone my presentation.
Worried thoughts invaded me while I was in the bus and a sudden fast break just shook all the thoughts out of me. I was in shocked and I know that I was 3 stops away from NP.
It was a close shave that I could postpone my presentation if not I would have died badly. Sometime it is all about having more understanding between each person. Thats all and we can have more peace and harmony among us. Agree?
I am pretty tired in class now and my head could drop any moments. Not mentioning that I have a shoot later. How am I going to survive? lol? And thesis essay? There are more to say and I don't want to know. FML . Alright.
Lastly I was annoyed by a selfish classmate. What a way to treat her own classmates. She should deserve what she should.
Hmm, maybe I should go back to lesson. Oh shit. It just ended.
YiChee™
Labels: I need you by my side
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
Reflection and refraction?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 12:52 PM
Life has been busy and it seems like I forgot when is when. How does it feels to you when a Saturday feels like a Sunday? When someone ask you, eh what day is it today arh? And you are stunt so long that you cannot answer that simple question. Lols. Maybe I am exaggerating it. But that how I feel as I type. I feel that I had grown up more and I learnt a lot towards the all the events that I had participated.
1. it is more about learning to be listeners first before we become problem solver.
2. When you commit a mistake, don't tell a lie. Because then you need to tell endless lies to cover up for what you started.
3. It is more about giving others a chance to be prove what he or she can do rather than just pushing them around just because he is weak in certain areas.
4. Don't make any assumption base on what you FIRST see, it might be deceiving.
5. We rush for time but we do it correctly. Just remind don't shout. Human needs respect too.
6. Don't wait for people to ask you what to do, we should KNOW how to take initiative and offer people our help.
7. Don't push the blame to others and make it seems like it is their fault. Because try putting yourself in their shoes.
8. Always consult when you are unsure, don't take it alone and mess up situation
9. If you are there to help, be sure to lend a hand but not a mouth. We can give suggestion but not give command unless needed.
10. Always be mindful of what is happening and be responsible for what you are doing.
"The name of a role is just a status, what lies within the person is the capability to prove what he or she can..."
I will leave it just for now as it is. Busy life and but I will still want meet you like how fate was kind to let us meet again and again. Just want say take care.
YiChee™
--xoxo,
yichee
yichee
